Hi there (intro)

Jodee37

It's with sadness that I come to you asking for a seat, but at the same time I feel such relief to find a group of women who share my same struggles and "get it" like none of my IRL friends do.

A little bit about me... DH & I have been married for almost 4 years. Live on the west coast, love the sunshine out here. I'm a nurse, he works in a law office. We've always dreamt of at least 3 kids of our own. Started TTC right after we got married. We lost angel baby #1 to a missed m/c in 1st tri. We were then blessed with a healthy and non-eventful pregnancy and our rainbow the following year. We decided to try for #2 13 months ago, charting, opks, temping, the works. Lost angel baby #2 in July after seeing a heartbeat, devastating. Got the ok to try again in Sept. Finally got BFP #4 last month. Betas looked on the low side of normal but for 2 weeks kept doubling, but 2 ER visits later had emergency surgery for ruptured ectopic. Beyond devastated. Lost my L tube. Lost my baby. Siting in the recovery room OB tells me my R tube is incredibly scarred. He said it looks "horrible." He tells me IVF will be the only chance of having a successful pregnancy again. Referred me to an RE and said I most likely will have to get the R tube removed before any treatment cycles. This all happened Thursday.

Needless to say my life has just turned upside down. I had prepared myself to lose my baby, but I never saw this coming. Then again I suppose no one does. The tears don't come anymore. I've cried them all. I'm not really sure how to cope with this. What little control I felt I had over the process has evaporated. Everything has come to a screeching halt and I'm so scared.

I haven't been active on TB since I was on PgAL while pg with my rainbow, but I knew this was a good place to find and give support, so here I am. I look forward to getting to know you.

Jodee37

um, not sure why my siggy won't show my updated info. bizarre.

KC1212

Hi I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my left tube due to ectopic in January. Anyway- welcome. These ladies are the best and several have gone through and/ or are currently going through IVF right now. I'm sure you'll get a lot of support/insight. (Hugs)

Missa_g

I introed here a few weeks ago but haven't been very active yet. I hate hate hate that you are here too, but I hope you get tons of support.

Jodee37

KC I'm so sorry for your loss as well. ((hugs))

Jodee37

MISSA!!!!!!!!!!!!

no freaking way. love you girl.

rmpar29

I'm very sorry for your struggles and that you find yourself here.  I wouldn't count your right tube out until you see the RE and have some more testing done.  Do you have an appointment yet?  If you do have to go through the IVF route you will find good company here.  Many ((((((HUGS)))))) to you!

jaminjeff

I'm so sorry for your losses and that you're here.  I hope your stay is short.

freakyfast

I am sorry to hear of your losses.  My right tube was destroyed to an ectopic and I had both tubes removed due to damage and a hydro. 

I am sorry you have to be here.  This is a place with awesome women.  

Jodee37

Thanks everyone. rmpar29 I go to see the RE on 3/24. I shouldn't count anything out yet, you're right. It's all so new and overwhelming, I'm just.. well, a mess. And hanging on every word a doctor tells me.

The 24th can't get here soon enough.

AprilDrew04

I'm sorry for your devastating news. IF is hard and anytime your world is turned upside down from sudden news like that can be especially hard to deal with. This group is full of really wonderful and supportive women. Hope you have an enjoyable stay at our board and things get figured out speedily.

rmpar29

@Jodee37 - Many (((HUGS))) and I hope the RE appointment goes well! 

Momarazzi007

I am so sorry. Words just say it all. I'm glad you found the board here- it is good to be with people who understand and be there for you- this place is full of women who are just that. Many hugs and praying for good news the 24th!!!

lucky7wife

So sorry for your losses.  

All hope is not lost though.  I have one tube left that is too scarred for use too.  Good luck with your appointment and keep us updated.  

Jodee37

@lucky7wife I'm sorry to hear you are in a similar boat as me. may I ask why the docs have left your tube? hope I'm not prying, I'm curious because I am reading a lot that many people have their tubes out to improve IVF success and I just assumed they'd be wanting to take my other one.

designer303

I am sorry for your losses and that you have fiund yourself, but this truly is an awesome group of ladies and im glad knowing you will find support here. Hope you gte good news on the 24th

sarahjeri

I'm so sorry for your losses, TB is a great support

tortuga47

I'm so sorry for your losses. I hope your stay here is short, but I've been blessed by these wonderful and supportive ladies and hope you find some comfort and strength here too.