Can you get like, PRE-partum depression?

tealowl

Is that even a word? Is it possible?

I don't feel very good...

tealowl

I'm going to call and make an appt w/my pysch doc. I saw her in January but I felt fine.

I'm just fretting about maternity and leave and birth, and S/O isn't being responsive right now about budgeting finances so I can take 12 weeks off, and it's basically all on me to figure out a more 'realistic' leave than 12 weeks, apparently. Well, if he doesn't want to shoulder more financial burden, then I literally can't go on maternity leave, period. I'll need to come back after 2 weeks and not take any short term. He's not comprehending that. I can't take a baby to day care at 2 weeks. I can't work after giving birth 14 days previous. 

And I have a birthing goal in mind, but I can't afford a doula or a home birth or even birth classes and it just makes sad. I'm afraid everything bad is going to happen like it did w/DD's birth and I'm scared and I can't stop being sad about everything.

And I'm doing terrible at work and my boss sees it and basically got me to admit I can't keep up with all my duties and I feel like a moron.

So now I weep in the bathroom. Waaahhhh someone coddle me.

tealowl

I hate hormones forever!

I ugly cried twice today, so I feel a lot better. DD and me are going to buy a rainbow loom tonight and make bracelets and get ice cream, so I'm looking forward to that tonight.

pantherRN

I'm so sorry teal. I think perinatal depression definitely exists. I hope you are able to get in with your doctor. And I also hope you have fun tonight!

bumpuser1282882

Sorry to hear you're feeling this way Teal. Hopefully your doctor has some insight. And I hope you and DD have a blast tonight!

BlackBooks

Any one can be depressed at any time. Or super anxious! I hope your doctor can help you work out some coping strategies including a way to approach your husband regarding planning for the future. Or you could call me and I'll come over and smack him up side his head for you.

Hang in there, Teal!

yurmom

I'm sorry Teal, with those issues I would definitely feel very anxious/depressed. Were you taking any medication prepregnancy?

beckynsean11

You definitely can. I'm sorry you're feeling this way. I hope your doc can help you. Big hugs!

tealowl

snowflake91011 said:

How are you feeling lately, @tealowl?

I felt better after the weekend, I just keep having bouts of weepiness, which I'm trying to attribute to pregnancy hormones, although thats usually how a bout of depression would start to flare up.

As long as I stay away from stressful convos I'm fine, so I'm not going to bring up my maternity leave to S/O for another couple of months.