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AliciaMomof4 · March 2014

Hello. I have 4 beautiful children with me and 1 in heaven. My journey may be different from many of you but I am still looking for support in my recent loss. My husband and I were very blessed to easily get pregnant and I gave birth to 2 daughters and then fraternal twin boys, all within 4 1/2 years. We decided our family was complete. After a switch between birth controls for me, we became pregnant again with our 5th baby to our great surprise! My husband had already scheduled his appointment for a vasectomy so I wouldn't need to have birth control anymore. So, I was about 8 weeks along when he had his vasectomy. We both thought it was good to go ahead with this thinking we wouldn't need to think about it anymore and our family would be complete with this baby. Everything looked to be perfect with this baby and pregnancy. As we started to get very excited, we had decided not to find out the sex of our surprise baby. We had already seen him on sonograms 3 times, mostly to check for multiples again early on and date the pregnancy since we weren't trying to get pregnant. We always saw and heard a strong heartbeat and saw movement. I went in for my 20 wk. anatomy scan and early on into it the technician left the room and was gone for about 30 minutes. Then, a nurse came back in with her and said "there are no heart tones on baby". I had her show me on the ultrasound and started crying hard, never expecting to hear these words and see that our sweet baby had passed. We went later that day to the hospital for my induction, something I had been through in all my previous pregnancies. But the end result this time was so very different. I gave birth January 7th at 11:15 PM to our son, Austin Samuel Bailey. He was born sleeping at 20 wks. But Dr.'s believe he passed away sometime a week or so before. My EDD was June 1st. We chose not to do any testing since we probably won't have anymore children and probably wouldn't have found a reason anyway. He looked perfect in every way and my placenta and cord looked good too. We have no reason why this happened. We weren't trying to get pregnant before him but really would like to have one more baby now. But we've had the vasectomy so it's a very difficult decision. We haven't decided anything yet but likely wont have anymore kids. We are so very grateful for our children here with us and miss our sweet Austin every day. Please keep us in your prayers if you will. Our hearts are broken. Thanks for your support in advance.

bunnybun4 · March 2014

I am so sorry for the loss of your son, Austin. I hate to welcome new moms here but glad you hae found such a great place for support. Be patient with yourself now and let yourself grieve...we are all here for you.

Carolee · March 2014

I'm so sorry for the loss of your son, Austin. I'm sad you have found this board, but welcome. I will be keeping you and your family in my thoughts.

MCH77 · March 2014

I'm so sorry to hear about Austin. ((Hugs))

Jesse835235 · March 2014

** Ticker**

So sorry to hear this. Prayers to you.

shandorfml2 · March 2014

So sorry about the liss if your sweet boy (((hugs)))

Bgirma · March 2014

I am so sorry for the loss of your little boy. We'll be thinking about you and your family.

VyD81 · March 2014

I'm so sorry for the loss of your son, Austin. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

mingaling2 · March 2014

I'm very sorry for the loss of your sweet Austin.

OSUWifey09 · March 2014

***SIGGY WARNING***

I'm so sorry for the loss of your sweet Austin. Please know that we are here for you whenever you need us. This board has been such a huge source of comfort for me, and I hope we can be the same for you. **hugs**