Hormones... Damn

MJC1116

Sheesh, my poor husband. I've been in a funk all weekend. I've been on the edge of tears and just plain bitchy. Yesterday I broke down into hysterical fits of tears because DH didn't respond to a question I asked him and I thought hew as ignoring me. Doesn't help that DD is in a funk, too. I don't know if it's the gloomy weather making me feel down or what. 

I just feel like an old shoe... to everyone. I feel unimportant to people I thought cared about me. It doesn't help that my BIL recently got engaged and my ILs fawn over his new fiancee and are showing way more excitement than they ever did with me. Don't get me wrong, I'm super happy for them. The fiancee is really sweet, but she's only been around a couple of times (they live across the country) and my ILs have tons of pictures of her on instagram and facebook with captions of how much they just loooove her. Guess how many pictures they have of me from the 12 years DH and I have been together? Yep, none.

Granted we see them way more so seeing us isn't a 'major event', but still. Part of me can't help but feel hurt. When DD was born, they only took pictures of DH and her, none with me, which made me sad. So now I'm thinking they'll do the same for this baby, but if it was BIL and fiancee, it'd be a paparazzi attack.

I am sure it's the hormones making it worse, but I can't seem to shake it. Please tell me I'm not the only one who doesn't poop rainbows while pregnant? Which makes me even more upset. All I wanted for 2 years was to be pregnant and now all I feel is sad. It's just not right.

...pity party over.

Ylvelill

*hugs*

chucktgirl

Tomorrow starts a fresh day!

amwenz

Cried all weekend while feeling like poo. One day at a time. I dug out some old favorite songs & sang my heart out. Hugs:)

tryingyetagain

I'm so sorry, MJC. That sounds pretty messed up to me and I would be hurt by that too, pregnant or not. Does YH feel snubbed too, or at least notice that they are treating you like that? I think it would be much harder to handle if DH didn't get it. My DH's stepmother is horrible, but thank goodness DH totally gets it (she is awful to both of us so he couldn't possibly miss it). It doesn't bother me nearly as much since he and I are on the same page about it. Maybe if you talk to YH it will help?

I hope you can do something just for you that will help you feel better (pedicure, shopping, lunch with a friend, or whatever). You do deserve it. And to hell with those insensitive people. They should be grateful you have given them a grandchild with another one on the way!

auntjessy

Sounds like your in-laws suck.  Sorry.   

If I were in that position, I'd try to just focus on the people that do treat me well - my family, my husband, my friends.  I completely agree with @tryingyetagain - try to get away from it and get your mind off of it.  Sometimes, people just suck.  Sometimes, those people are in-laws.  

MJC1116

Thanks ladies. It was just a rough weekend all around. After a good sob session, I felt better. I feel like I painted my in-laws badly. They really are great and have accepted me as their own. I guess the fanfare over the "new" daughter in law is hurtful because I don't feel they ever did that with me...I think mainly because DH doesn't want and has never wanted much attention and his brother really needs it and feeds off of it. I think also they see me as one of the family already, so it's not meant to exclude me but for me to celebrate in it with them. I don't know. Being pregnant certainly doesn't help me see rationally, but I do feel like today is a new and better day.  Hugs back to you!

Cutiecruz327

Sending you Hugs!