My rollercoaster has not ended.

HopeNotLost · March 2014

Backstory: On 2/12 I found out I was pregnant, even though I had my tubes tied. The next day I went in for bloodwork. On 2/17 I went for more bloodwork, and the numbers were looking good. Then on the 21st I had more bloodwork and a u/s. The u/s showed a gestational sac. The bloodwork was ok, my betas didn't increase as much as my doctor hoped they would. So then I had to go back on the 24th for another u/s and more bloodwork. We saw a yolk sac, but no heartbeat. Based on my guess of a LMP (I never keep track because I didn't think I need to considering I had my tubes tied), I should have been 6 weeks. The sac was measuring 2 days smaller, but like I told my doctor, I was giving a guess on my period...I could have been off by a few days.

Later that day I got a phone call that my betas didn't go up as much as the doctor would have liked to see, and that I would likely miscarry. I was shocked and pretty upset, because I had started getting used to the idea of having a 4th child.

On the 27th I went back for another u/s and bloodwork. Again, no heartbeat. However, my betas were continuing to rise. My doctor was concerned about there being a pseudo-sac in my uterus and the embryo possibly being in my fallopian tube. I have never heard of such a thing, but the nurse said it is rare. They wanted to me to go to Omaha the next day to see my perinatologist (who just happened to be the one who performed my c-section with my last child and was the one who did my tubal ligation) to determine what was going on.

So yesterday I went and the u/s tech did a transvaginal u/s. I was watching the screen, and I saw a flicker, and almost sat straight up. I said, "Did you just see what I saw?" Sure enough, there is a heartbeat. It was about 110-120 bpm. The doctor came in and checked everything, and he said that based on my betas, science is telling him that I will miscarry. However, his gut feeling is that it will be a full term pregnancy. I know his gut feeling really means nothing. I am trying not to get my hopes up, but it is hard. When I saw that heartbeat, you know darn well my hopes went up. How could they not?

I go back on 3/12 for another ultrasound, unless by chance I start to miscarry before then. I can't even begin to explain the emotions that I have gone through in the last two and a half weeks.

Thanks for reading!

Everyusernameistaken · March 2014

What a stressful chain of events. I'm hoping for good news for you! Hang in there, you sound like a very strong lady!

MMason12 · March 2014

Hopefully things continue to go in the right direction!! Good luck!!

mrsdanielleM2010 · March 2014

Wow, that sure is a roller coaster. Fingers crossed for you.

HopeNotLost · March 2014

HiCan said:

Wow, that's crazy! You were on the October board, right? FX for you!!

Yep, I posted that I was going to miscarry. I will be back in a couple of weeks once I see the heartbeat again...if I do. I'm really trying to not get my hopes up.

AggieBeth06 · March 2014

HopeNotLost said:

HiCan said:

Wow, that's crazy! You were on the October board, right? FX for you!!

Yep, I posted that I was going to miscarry. I will be back in a couple of weeks once I see the heartbeat again...if I do. I'm really trying to not get my hopes up.

That isn't characteristic for your s/n.

What a crazy ride. Seeing a HB reduces your chances of m/c to 5%. Think about that...

Are they going to do more betas?

I'm sorry that you're in limbo. (((Hugs)))

HopeNotLost · March 2014

@AggieBeth06 No we aren't doing more betas...the perinatologist said that when they are over 4,000, they really don't say much more than I am pregnant. So I guess I would only have to have them checked if I start to miscarry.

Edit: Also, I didn't know that seeing a heartbeat reduces the chances of a m/c to 5%. That's incredible to know, so thank you!

I know my sn definitely doesn't make sense for how I'm feeling...it's crazy. I tried for soooo long to get pregnant with my 3rd daughter, and then had my tubes tied and somehow get pregnant. The universe is quite a character huh.

AggieBeth06 · March 2014

HopeNotLost said:
@AggieBeth06 No we aren't doing more betas...the perinatologist said that when they are over 4,000, they really don't say much more than I am pregnant. So I guess I would only have to have them checked if I start to miscarry.

Edit: Also, I didn't know that seeing a heartbeat reduces the chances of a m/c to 5%. That's incredible to know, so thank you! I know my sn definitely doesn't make sense for how I'm feeling...it's crazy. I tried for soooo long to get pregnant with my 3rd daughter, and then had my tubes tied and somehow get pregnant. The universe is quite a character huh.

Yes ma'am it does! My SIL and BIL decided they were done after 2. A few weeks after donating the baby stuff, SIL found out she was pregnant. She ended up m/c but she prayed prior to knowing for sure it was a m/c that the complications she was having were due to twins (she was spotting, which is a potential indication of twins in early pregnancy). Not a full cycle after m/c she was pregnant with spontaneous twins. That's the first set in the family in as long as memory and genealogy records state.

I'm sure some of you might say that the story is MUD, but scout's honor that I'm telling the truth.

One way or another, I know that you will gain wisdom and grow as a family through whatever track your roller coaster veers down so long as you have a positive attitude.

T&Ps for you.

Edited to clarify on spotting.