I haven't posted as much and I've become a lurker. I just wanted to give an update on what I found out at my doctor appointment. We got the pathology report back and it confirmed it was a severe case of acute chorioanmionitis. I'm okay with this since I had come to accept this explanation throughout the past few weeks. If it had been anything else, I would have had to start the acceptance process all over again. We still do not have a cause, but it really doesn't matter now.
My doctor wants me to get on birth control for one month and then we can start trying again. I was happy about this too. I told her we wanted to try again as soon as possible. She said we wouldn't do much different next time since we took many precautions this time. She would like to send me to the MFM specialist sooner next time. I agree, there was no way to catch this and I truly felt we did everything right. Shit happens and it's not fair, but we can only move forward. So hopefully we'll get our bfp in the next few weeks or months and go from there.
In other news...
I finally went back to work last week and my first day was tough, but I made it. It helped tremendously to see my kids again. Unfortunately, I had to tell one of them her mother passed away yesterday.It was rough. I just held her and we cried together. I'm starting to feel overwhelmed at work, but I don't have a choice but to keep going. Today was emotionally draining. I just felt done with everything, wanted to stay home and cry, and to top it off I realized it was Thursday which used to be my ticker change. My DH also thought since my appointment was today maybe I was anxious/nervous of the results. I seriously didn't think of that earlier, but I think he was 100% right.I'm not sure what I would do with him.
Anyway, I'm just here trying to get back to my new normal. I miss you all like crazy. No other BMB will be as awesome, loving, and supportive as you all. This truly is a special group and I'm sad I'm slowly leaving. Take care.
DD born on 11/10/2007TTC Sept-Nov 2012
BFP on 10/25/2012 CP 11/1/2012
Back on BCP
BFP on 10/13/2013 EDD June 26, 2014
Little Girl went to Heaven on January 26, 2014 @ 18 weeks
TTCAL March 2014-Present
BFP on 6/20/2014 Blighted Ovum
BFP on 8/31/2014 It's a GIRL! EDD May 18, 2015
Re: SS Update from doctor appointment**tattoo pic in comments**
BFP #2 9/28/13....EDD 6/7/14
Praying for you and your husband.
I feel like I am at a loss for words, so all I will say is I have my fingers and toes crossed for your BFP announcement. May it come quickly and be sticky.
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DD 3/15/12
DD 6/3/14
#4 Due 10/26/18!
Married DH 7/30/11
CSC arrived 5/7/12
CHC arrived 6/2/14
T&P for a sticky BFP soon
((hugs))
#3 DD June 2014
CP December 2015
M/C 8/2016
Rainbow & Babe #4 EDD 7.28.18
I'm not new. I just hate The Bump.
And please, take if easy at work and back off when you need to. I know how hard our job can be emotionally and I'm sure you- like me -take on your students' pain. Just monitor yourself for when it becomes too much-which I'm sure you're doing anyway. We just always need that friendly reminder that we can't take care of others until we are taken care of ourselves.
BFP 4/17/13, MC began 5/2/13 @ 6 weeks
My FF Chart