Hi I have post postpartum depression and I recently found out. Three weeks ago me and my bf well ex now broke things off because we just truly needed a break. Once I realized it my postpartum depression got worse. I went to his home and we had a blow up argument. I hit the window and broke it. Then we took another break at that point I started to have bad anxiety attacks and panic attacks. I couldn't leave him alone I just felt I needed him. I totally scared him away. I had never done anything like this in my life before. I said the most nastiest things to him and I called and texted him every 5 seconds. I couldn't eat or sleep I was constantly riding and I cried about every little thing. After I realized something was truly wrong I checked myself into the hospital. The last time I seen my bf was him telling me to stay away. I have spoken to him he tried to understand but I had another outburst. I truly don't want to lose him. What should I do?