Making myself crazy vent

AJCagle82

Flooded with outside thoughts that in turn make me think of Parker too (not that I ever really stop). It's making me think of the hospital, losing her, and all that pain. I miss her so much. Mix everything together, and you have the perfect recipe for no sleep. DH is out of town and I'm just nuts. Thanks for letting me vent while I try not to spiral out of control. In a little over a week it will be five months since we lost Parker Jane. There is just so much on my mind right now. 

shandorfml2

Totally get it. Night is hard for me to, and when I'm driving alone. Those thoughts come flooding back. I try to replace those thoughts with happy memories, and that she wouldn't want me to think about the sad times.

mingaling2

Nighttime is the worst.  I'm sorry. 

neptunebljc

I agree with you. Nighttime can bring on some many emotions. It really sucks sometimes.

Sending hugs

bunnybun4

A few months ago I started having a lot of problems falling asleep and my mind was flooded with traumatic memories from losing Bunny.  I would replay terrible events over and over in my head...it was awful.  My therapist reminded me that I had been dealing with my grief but now my body was trying to tell me that I also needed to deal with the trauma that had happened to me.  She taught me some relaxation exercises that have REALLY helped me redirect my mind when it wants to go to the traumatic loop again. 

sorry you are having a rough time.

stefuge

I'm so sorry. Tomorrow will be 5 months for us, and I have felt it overwhelming me this week. The other night I was up til 2 am crying, and it sucked. I just have to remind myself it's okay to be sad, and to cry, and get it out and just get through it, day by day. ((Hugs))

neptunebljc

stefuge  I think a good cry and a good 'explosion' of emotion is helpful.  I think you need to feel the grief every once in a while because it is SO hard to keep it in.