Racked with guilt

Crinita

I have a history of ED.  I did great during the pregnancy with eating, and though I feel I am eating decently now, with the breastfeeding it does not seem to be enough. I am losing weight and my supply has started to decline.  I think the effortless weight loss from BF combined with the stress of having an infant has re-triggered my issue.  I am fighting it and making a hard effort to combat it, but I am feeling like a terrible mom right now, which just seems to be a downward spiral. 

I totally did not realize that breastfeeding would be so triggering, especially after handling the pregnancy so well.  Please tell me I am not the only one. 

linzeek44

You are not a terrible mom. Sounds like you just need some help. Can you see a counselor?

Myaflowers

You are not a terrible mom! I also have an ED history. Mine was triggered at the end of pregnancy and after delivery. It affected my milk supply, so I had to force mtself to start eating more. Maybe going to talk to someone about the stress of being a new mom and the ED would help. It's probably just a momentary setback. My ED calmed back down once I focused on eating enough to maintain my supply. I worry about what will happen once I wean, though. Just know that you are NOT the only one and go talk to someone so you will have the strength to fight back against your ED. Good luck! You're a great mom!

CDMay2006

I don't have experience with this, but just wanted to say, don't be too hard on yourself. The physical, emotional and hormonal changes following birth are profound. Also, you could have a bit of a pmad (ppa/ppd/etc), which could exacerbate the ed and it may be really helpful to talk to a counselor.

babygiantquest

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