I am being a PW, but I need to vent.

trizzie

Now that I have had a few hours to cry, I need to vent. First, thank you all for your kind words and support. I appreciate it so much. I am angry. I am angry I don't have an answer why this keeps happening, that it is "unexplained". I am angry that the RE (my usual, positive Re is out on, ironically, maternity leave) basically to.d me I should be satisfied I have two kids and be "done". I am angry that I have a burning desire for a 3rd and it may never happen. And I am angry that I am willing to go through this one more time, because I am just not satisfied. I found an article on "super fertiles". Where basically you get pregnant easily, but your body doesn't sort the good from the bad and you have recurrent losses. I think this is ,y issue. It basically said you have to just keep trying. I am pretty much rambling here and I am sorry. I am just heartbroken. And lost.

caybeh

I'm so sorry. That was not a very nice thing for them to tell you. Hugs again.

kcisthebombdotcom

I'm mad for you too. I'm sorry this keeps happening to you.

notreallyirish

That doctor blows, and this was a particularly bad time to make an asinine comment like that. Sometimes prople think they are helping when they are actually being huge d-bags. So sorry!

MesmrEwe

auroraloo said:

It's no god damned business of your REs how many children you want, it's just up to them to help you with what you want.

I am pissed for you. I'm sorry, triz.

Ditto this!!!!  Time to find a new RE - sorry but that was the instant trust broken forever moment..  It's not their job to say "you should be happy", it's their job to instead say "how would YOU like to proceed?" and support you... 

ASullivan1231

I have nothing to say except I'm so sorry and you don't need to be "satisfied." You have every right in the world to feel how you feel. Please know I'll continue to think of you and pray for you.

trizzie

Thank you all so much.i am broken, just broken. Amd yet, I desperately want to try one more time. Which might be the definition of insanity. I also don't like being told what to do, so that just encouraged me more. I just feel like God has placed 3 on my heart for a reason. And I am to sure why this is happening, but I don't feel like I can give up yet.

dizzycooks

I would make sure you don't ever have to deal with that particular RE ever again. No one gets to say how many kids you should have or whether or not you should be happy with what you have. I felt bad wanting another because dd is awesome, but there laity is we want more kids and not having them was killing me. You are entitled to your feelings and I do t think it's insane. Give it time and talk with your so band the better re. Make a plan and move forward when you are ready. And do t worry about being a PW.