Is this a normal feeling??

on42

To be honest, I am a naturally hopelessly hopeful person. I think it's my defense mechanism to be optimistic. But with regard to TTC, I just don't feel excited about getting pregnant. I definitely want to be a mom. I definitely want the experience of being pregnant. But I feel like I have been disappointed over the years so much, that it's just really hard to get in that hopeful place. It's hard to get excited. This cycle, I wasn't really let down by the BFNs, and I only used wondfos to test; I didn't spend a dime on my favorite: the FRER.

Some days, I feel like I just want to get pregnant so that I can stop worrying about it. Is this normal?? Does anyone else experience this? 

Mrs.McIrish

Totally normal and the longer it goes on trying to get pregnant, you get less excited, less hopeful. I expect BFNs now and would prob have a heart attack if it was positive... I actually don't know what I would do with myself/extra time if I was pregnant since I spent so much of my time researching treatment options.

Samuelismomma

I hope its normal, because feeling same way . My H is so positive this cycle and I have spent the whole month worrying...of course seeing sticks either going down in darkness or no line at all every month doesn't help:(....sending you knots of hugs and love from indiana:-)

czarmom

I feel that's normal....that's the normal for me.   It's exhausting to go through cycles with disappointment of BFN's or to have to go through the devastation of a miscarriage and then try again and have the fear in the back of your head that it may happen again or you may not get pregnant at all.   I try to be positive, but honestly, I'm a type A worrier and it's really hard for me to stay optimistic.  

gscoville

It's been a very long time since I've felt at all hopeful about getting pregnant, and given I've been trying for almost a year since my loss and I have tended towards shorter cycles, sadly I'm getting pretty used to seeing BFNs and have just come to expect them. As a matter of fact, I rarely even test anymore, I'm so into the mindset of expecting BFNs that I hate to waste the tests and just wait for my period to arrive - and it always does. Sad place to be but it's my reality.

jchickiem

What you are feeling is totally normal.  I've been ridiculously optimistic most months while TTC#2. Some months the let down was bad, but more recently I've kind of expected to not be pregnant.

HeathernSteven

same here, I just wait for AF, I may have a few moments each month where I think holy cow maybe? But that is for about 5 mins, otherwise its oh yes AF there you are I was totally expecting you.

I think its just a coping mechanism to keep us from getting hurt over and over again, to be a bit indifferent.