Hi friends! I've missed you!
I'm going to try to tip toe back in here because of the love and the missings.
It's been a hard couple of weeks around here. All of the stars aligned and we finally were able to get all of our RPL results in and saw the RE. I was diagnosed with DOR and even though we saw it coming, we were still like
I think it was just finally hearing the words and having my year old theory and fear confirmed that hit me really hard. And then, anytime a nurse looked at my chart to see "just how diminished" I was they got this look on their face...
Top 10 things that don't help... Number 1: THAT!
For days later I was a mess. I was able to see that it wasn't over for us, and we were given a few options, but I was crying at every turn.
Then friends and family started coming out and offering to donate eggs and be a gestational carrier even though that latter is not a viable option for us.
So instead of thinking about my fucked up ovaries, I went to the gym everyday
and decorated my house like a crazy person.
Then Christmas came and I did two things:
Tomorrow my husband and I are sitting down to talk about how we want to proceed. I'm 98% sure my husband and I are on the same page, we just need to hash out some details of what to do next. I know there's nothing I can take or do that can reverse the fucked up status of my ovaries, but does anyone know of any supplements or eastern treatments that have helped? PGAL and PAL are welcome to post, as well.
I hope to be back here more to love on and support you all. It's a bitch being out there with everyone's super happy and wonderful holiday families. Thank you to @snegde
, and @LifeofCat
for keeping tabs on me over the past few weeks.
~*~Everyone is welcome~*~