I have been living my life the past two months as if I had TWO weeks of TWO Days off in the middle of the week for Christmas and NY. We have 12/24 & 12/25 off. I was also under the illusion that we had 12/31 & 01/01 off... Sadly I discovered that we do not have 12/31 off. WTF? Good thing someone questioned me about it. They crushed my dreams for sleeping in 4 extra days total!. But I will make due!
Dearest Diary, I just want you to know that I am going to force/fake positivity and optimism like it's my job this cycle! I'm on cd4 and this cycle WILL work GDit. 6th iui, 3rd since my loss (which btw was my 3rd iui, and 3 is my fave number, sooo yep stars are aligning!) So Diary (aka anyone reading) if you are in desperate need of support I will be throwing rainbows and unicorns and leprechauns all around to share! #BFFPSINJANUARYFORALL
Two DDs 10/08 and 08/10, no primary IF
TTC #3 since 10/2011 - dx unexplained/weak ovulation
3 BFN clomid + TI cycles, 5 BFN clomid/gonal f IUIs, 1 mmc IUI
2/19/2014 IVF #1 Unexpected low E2 (oversuppressed) -> increased to max doses = 3 or 4 follicles, converting to IUI
BFFP Saw 1 beautiful heartbeat at 6w6d, follow up u/s at 9w showed mmc. Eff this.
NTNP 5/2014-9/2014, OPKs and TI 10/2014 - 1/2015.
RPL testing all normal, AFC, AMH, and FSH all normal.
#1. No I do not feel bad for hiding brothers girlfriends fb posts.
#2. Fuck you body
#3. Fuck you CD84 and stupid chart that makes no sense.
#4 No Co-irkers I do not want to participate in this stupid holiday party and pretend to be happy and jolly especially with all of your fake smiles and laughter ::shudder::
#5 I am ready for the new year to just get here already.
#6 Somedays I am just ready to give up on ever getting baby #2.
Fucking Over It All,
Spooks
**~Future Mama to my June "Sprout"~** EDD- 06/13/2017 **Stinkerbelle-8-27-10 * Mr.P's 2nd Mama 7-27-07**
#1. No I do not feel bad for hiding brothers girlfriends fb posts.
#2. Fuck you body
#3. Fuck you CD84 and stupid chart that makes no sense.
#4 No Co-irkers I do not want to participate in this stupid holiday party and pretend to be happy and jolly especially with all of your fake smiles and laughter ::shudder::
#5 I am ready for the new year to just get here already.
#6 Somedays I am just ready to give up on ever getting baby #2.
How is it that we always end up trying to do the right thing and getting screwed for it? I feel sad for DS who has sensory issues and is stuck in this tiny condo with us because the market tanked right after we bought it (within our means but apparently that doesn't mean anything).
My dad got a hefty-ass check in the mail after his house got foreclosed on (banks were ordered to shell out $$ to people who were foreclosed on). The bank didn't really prey on him, he simply quit paying and just squatted for awhile.
M&FIL bought SIL a house that she now rents from them. They said it's for her 3 kids (who she had one right after the other within less than 3 years, no fertility issues, with 2 different dads who also had no fertility issues).
Whine whine whine. I'm kind of sick of feeling sorry for myself, but I am also kind of tired of working my ass off just to watch everyone around us sail past us. I know it's not a race but I feel like our lives have completely stalled even though we are working so hard.
I truly do wish everyone can find some things to enjoy this holiday season!
Was this the longest day ever? I just want to go see Catching Fire. Why the eff every time I make plans to see CF, we get sidetracked on some other bullshit. Oh and I am finally ovulating, soooooo baseline *should* be 1/4
DD, f you customers I have had enough of you yelling at me. I'm sorry you are waiting til the last minute. F you bat shit crazy girl who I had to fire today and then wouldn't leave the store and was screaming and crying and making a scene for 2 gd hours afterward and I had to call your mom to pick you up!! Lastly, f you body for having a 39 day cycle with bfn. I'm ready to go back to a normal schedule!!
TTC for 1.5 years with a crappy RE. 12 cycles with clomid (11 too many)
I'd like to take this time to send out a big FUCK YOU, to whatever assholes got up at the ass crack of dawn to buy out BOTH days of Sesame Street Live. I was waiting for MONTHS for this Groupon. The email came in at 8:30, as soon as I saw it AT 9:12.. the fucking thing was sold out?? Thanks for ruining my kids' January D-bags.
Sincerely,
No! FUCK YOU!
Spontaneous pregnancy #1 DD1 July 31, 2011
Trying for #2 since Oct 11
732973 Clomid Cycles
2 IUIs
3 Fresh IVFs= 1 Ectopic treated with MTX Spontaneous pregnancy #2= Ectopic #2= lost left tube Spontaneous pregnancy #3= DD2 January 29, 2016 Spontaneous pregnancy #4= Ectopic #3 Spontaneous pregnancy #5= Baby #3 is a BOY!!!
I'd like to take this time to send out a big FUCK YOU, to whatever assholes got up at the ass crack of dawn to buy out BOTH days of Sesame Street Live. I was waiting for MONTHS for this Groupon. The email came in at 8:30, as soon as I saw it AT 9:12.. the fucking thing was sold out?? Thanks for ruining my kids' January D-bags.
Sincerely,
No! FUCK YOU!
That's some bullshit right there. How does something like that sell out in 45 minutes? Ugh. Any chance you could do another kind of nearby city and make an overnight trip of it?
I'd like to take this time to send out a big FUCK YOU, to whatever assholes got up at the ass crack of dawn to buy out BOTH days of Sesame Street Live. I was waiting for MONTHS for this Groupon. The email came in at 8:30, as soon as I saw it AT 9:12.. the fucking thing was sold out?? Thanks for ruining my kids' January D-bags.
Sincerely,
No! FUCK YOU!
That's some bullshit right there. How does something like that sell out in 45 minutes? Ugh. Any chance you could do another kind of nearby city and make an overnight trip of it?
Ugh... I wish we could because she would die for SSL. Unfortunately H's schedule is too crazy to plan anything like that any time soon Super bummer.
Spontaneous pregnancy #1 DD1 July 31, 2011
Trying for #2 since Oct 11
732973 Clomid Cycles
2 IUIs
3 Fresh IVFs= 1 Ectopic treated with MTX Spontaneous pregnancy #2= Ectopic #2= lost left tube Spontaneous pregnancy #3= DD2 January 29, 2016 Spontaneous pregnancy #4= Ectopic #3 Spontaneous pregnancy #5= Baby #3 is a BOY!!!
Dear Diary, thank you sister in law for sending me a text confirming your 2nd pregnancy is in fact a boy... which made me feel like a perve because it forced me to think about your unborn son's penis. Next time only update if the sex changes, or not at all because I don't really want to be fake happy right now.
Dear diary-
I'm on day 8 of AF?! Full flow for four days now now I'm still spotting for four days?!
AND my temps are hanging higher than usual. 98's instead of 97 and 96!?
So basically my loss f-ed up my body even more?!
Thanks for that.
Ugh sorry KC! Hope the spotting stops ASAP!
Two DDs 10/08 and 08/10, no primary IF
TTC #3 since 10/2011 - dx unexplained/weak ovulation
3 BFN clomid + TI cycles, 5 BFN clomid/gonal f IUIs, 1 mmc IUI
2/19/2014 IVF #1 Unexpected low E2 (oversuppressed) -> increased to max doses = 3 or 4 follicles, converting to IUI
BFFP Saw 1 beautiful heartbeat at 6w6d, follow up u/s at 9w showed mmc. Eff this.
NTNP 5/2014-9/2014, OPKs and TI 10/2014 - 1/2015.
RPL testing all normal, AFC, AMH, and FSH all normal.
Dear diary-
I'm on day 8 of AF?! Full flow for four days now now I'm still spotting for four days?!
AND my temps are hanging higher than usual. 98's instead of 97 and 96!?
So basically my loss f-ed up my body even more?!
Thanks for that.
Ugh!! I had the same thing this cycle!! ~X( 3 days of flow, and SEVEN effing days of spotting!! Ain't nobody got time fo' dat 8-|
Spontaneous pregnancy #1 DD1 July 31, 2011
Trying for #2 since Oct 11
732973 Clomid Cycles
2 IUIs
3 Fresh IVFs= 1 Ectopic treated with MTX Spontaneous pregnancy #2= Ectopic #2= lost left tube Spontaneous pregnancy #3= DD2 January 29, 2016 Spontaneous pregnancy #4= Ectopic #3 Spontaneous pregnancy #5= Baby #3 is a BOY!!!
Re: BOOM DDF
I'm over here breaking my own fevers and shiiii! What's your super power?!
Side note: I'm a big ass baby and really can't wait for my husband to get home and take care of me. Lol.
I just want you to know that I am going to force/fake positivity and optimism like it's my job this cycle! I'm on cd4 and this cycle WILL work GDit. 6th iui, 3rd since my loss (which btw was my 3rd iui, and 3 is my fave number, sooo yep stars are aligning!) So Diary (aka anyone reading) if you are in desperate need of support I will be throwing rainbows and unicorns and leprechauns all around to share! #BFFPSINJANUARYFORALL
EDD- 06/13/2017
**Stinkerbelle-8-27-10 * Mr.P's 2nd Mama 7-27-07**
I concur!!!!!!! Hugs!
How is it that we always end up trying to do the right thing and getting screwed for it? I feel sad for DS who has sensory issues and is stuck in this tiny condo with us because the market tanked right after we bought it (within our means but apparently that doesn't mean anything).
My dad got a hefty-ass check in the mail after his house got foreclosed on (banks were ordered to shell out $$ to people who were foreclosed on). The bank didn't really prey on him, he simply quit paying and just squatted for awhile.
M&FIL bought SIL a house that she now rents from them. They said it's for her 3 kids (who she had one right after the other within less than 3 years, no fertility issues, with 2 different dads who also had no fertility issues).
Whine whine whine. I'm kind of sick of feeling sorry for myself, but I am also kind of tired of working my ass off just to watch everyone around us sail past us. I know it's not a race but I feel like our lives have completely stalled even though we are working so hard.
I truly do wish everyone can find some things to enjoy this holiday season!
Spontaneous pregnancy #1
DD1 July 31, 2011
Trying for #2 since Oct 11
Spontaneous pregnancy #2= Ectopic #2= lost left tube
Spontaneous pregnancy #3= DD2 January 29, 2016
Spontaneous pregnancy #4= Ectopic #3
Spontaneous pregnancy #5= Baby #3 is a BOY!!!
Spontaneous pregnancy #1
DD1 July 31, 2011
Trying for #2 since Oct 11
Spontaneous pregnancy #2= Ectopic #2= lost left tube
Spontaneous pregnancy #3= DD2 January 29, 2016
Spontaneous pregnancy #4= Ectopic #3
Spontaneous pregnancy #5= Baby #3 is a BOY!!!
Spontaneous pregnancy #1
DD1 July 31, 2011
Trying for #2 since Oct 11
Spontaneous pregnancy #2= Ectopic #2= lost left tube
Spontaneous pregnancy #3= DD2 January 29, 2016
Spontaneous pregnancy #4= Ectopic #3
Spontaneous pregnancy #5= Baby #3 is a BOY!!!
Cuz I'm the sidekick! Lol
Rainbow Surprise Baby due 05/26/2017
Spontaneous pregnancy #1
DD1 July 31, 2011
Trying for #2 since Oct 11
Spontaneous pregnancy #2= Ectopic #2= lost left tube
Spontaneous pregnancy #3= DD2 January 29, 2016
Spontaneous pregnancy #4= Ectopic #3
Spontaneous pregnancy #5= Baby #3 is a BOY!!!
Spontaneous pregnancy #1
DD1 July 31, 2011
Trying for #2 since Oct 11
Spontaneous pregnancy #2= Ectopic #2= lost left tube
Spontaneous pregnancy #3= DD2 January 29, 2016
Spontaneous pregnancy #4= Ectopic #3
Spontaneous pregnancy #5= Baby #3 is a BOY!!!
I have a sore throat and I'm freezing. Boo!
I'm on day 8 of AF?! Full flow for four days now now I'm still spotting for four days?!
AND my temps are hanging higher than usual. 98's instead of 97 and 96!?
So basically my loss f-ed up my body even more?!
Thanks for that.
Me: 27 DH: 33
Conceived DS after 4 years of MFI
TTC # 2 (not trying,not preventing ever)
May 2013 - August 2013 Timed Intercourse = BFN
September 2013 Timed Intercourse, Weekly Acupuncture, Herbs=BFN
October 2013 Timed Intercourse, Weekly Acupuncture, Herbs, and "warming foods" = BFP
Beta #1 19, Beta #2 18 Progesterone 4.6 Miscarried 11/9/13
November 2013 - Benched, waiting for first post-loss AF.
No longer benched per New RE/OB!
Jan. 15 2014 - BFP. HCG 3900 - Ectopic
Jan. 16 2014 Left tube removed and D&C
March 2, 2014 First AF
Im sorry If I got you sick, lol :P
Ugh sorry KC! Hope the spotting stops ASAP!
Spontaneous pregnancy #1
DD1 July 31, 2011
Trying for #2 since Oct 11
Spontaneous pregnancy #2= Ectopic #2= lost left tube
Spontaneous pregnancy #3= DD2 January 29, 2016
Spontaneous pregnancy #4= Ectopic #3
Spontaneous pregnancy #5= Baby #3 is a BOY!!!
Spontaneous pregnancy #1
DD1 July 31, 2011
Trying for #2 since Oct 11
Spontaneous pregnancy #2= Ectopic #2= lost left tube
Spontaneous pregnancy #3= DD2 January 29, 2016
Spontaneous pregnancy #4= Ectopic #3
Spontaneous pregnancy #5= Baby #3 is a BOY!!!
Spontaneous pregnancy #1
DD1 July 31, 2011
Trying for #2 since Oct 11
Spontaneous pregnancy #2= Ectopic #2= lost left tube
Spontaneous pregnancy #3= DD2 January 29, 2016
Spontaneous pregnancy #4= Ectopic #3
Spontaneous pregnancy #5= Baby #3 is a BOY!!!
Lol I did just blame her for this!
Lol I did just blame her for this!
Gosh! See if I share a cold with you again! Ungrateful!!!! Lol :-*