I debated on whether to post on here... But i need some encouragement and understanding from people who understand.
I am currently 23 weeks pregnant with my second boy. My DS1 is 25 months old and last week we had him evaluated, based on his delayed speech and his tendency to ignore people. We left with a diagnosis. He is mildly on the Autism Spectrum. Its hard describe my emotions this past week. I cried all day the day after the diagnosis, until i was physically ill. my anxiety level went through the roof. But every day is better as i process this. What does this mean for my boy? What do i need to do on a day to day basis differently that will help him get the best start he can? We already do speech and OT and have an excellent relationship with our Early Intervention coordinator.
I think the most frustrating part is my confidence is shaken. Ive always been such a confident mom and now I'm just overwhelmed. (I'm sure pregnancy hormones are not helping)
Also, although we've received an outpouring of encouragement from our family and friends, I'm trying to ignore comments like "oh, kids on the spectrum don't like touched, or don't like change" etc.... Well like they say "if you've met one person with autism, you've met one person with autism" My son is very young, he loves snuggles and playing, he loves music and looking at books. He has a tendency to ignore you when you call his name and ignore people in general, but there are so many things he does that are not spectrum related. I'm not saying that to argue with the diagnosis, but it does make it hard to accept. and it makes me feel like i have to change everything iv imagined for my little boy for the future!
We are due to have our second boy in april. Im not worried how DS will do with the baby, but I'm worried how i will balance the needs of a newborn and the needs of a 2 1/2 year old on the spectrum.
Any encouragement/ advice would be most welcome! thank you for reading