Late Term and Child Loss

My Baby Bid Farewell

I am one of the first time mothers out there who lost their baby during the second trimester...

On Nov 26, 2013, we were going to meet a maternal-fetal specialist for a level 3 ultrasound. Our 22 weeks old baby has a single umbilical artery and the doctors were concerned of some abnormalities with the baby. We were nervous and prepared to accept whatever abnormalities we will find out then. But of course, we weren't prepared enough to hear the worst case. The doctor couldn't find a heart beat. He said the baby could have been gone for few days now.
I believe you understand how heart broken we were. My poor dear husband and I cried so much.

It suddenly came to me the dream that I had several days ago before we learned about what happened to our little angel. In my dream, I already had the baby. For some reason the baby was left inside the car. When I learned about this, I panicked while searching for my little one. There he was left in the car. It was hot and cramped in there. I held my baby. He was sleeping peacefully but I shook him a bit to see if he is okay. He woke up very innocently and looked around just content of the world. No complains about the heat, the tightness in the car and most of all how we left him there. In my heart, I felt he said "I'm okay mommy". I knew that this was the time he left us. He said good bye to us and letting us know not to worry about him for he is in a better place.

The day I was discharged in the hospital was before Thanksgiving. That night, I cried so hard again. I missed my little Gabriel so much. I asked God with all my heart if I can just hold him again. Although I know there is no way it will happen. But God works in wondrous ways and He listens. Again, I had a dream. I was in my wedding party. It seemed different though. I saw my baby in a swaddling cloth, sleeping. I held him in my arms and he woke up, all smiles and giggling. It was the best feeling I had in days. It felt good feeling like a mom even in a dream.

I know my son is an angel and he is watching over us.

Re: My Baby Bid Farewell

  • I am so sorry for the loss of your Gabriel. We are always here for you. Please know that you have come to a very supportive and understanding board. I hope this board brings you as much support and comfort as it has brought me. Hugs to you.
  • I am so so sorry for your loss of precious Gabriel. I hope you find support here <3
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  • So very sorry for the loss of your sweet Gabriel. Sending thoughts and prayers your way.

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    edited December 2013
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    I am very sorry to hear of your loss of Gabriel. As others have said, I hope you are able to find support on this board. The women here are truly wonderful.
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  • I'm so sorry about Gabriel. You're in my prayers.

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  • Thank you all. I just want to hug everyone.
  • I'm so sorry for the loss of your sweet son, Gabriel.
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  • I'm so sorry for your loss. Take care of yourself during this tough time.
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    I'm so sorry for the loss of your precious Gabriel.... know that we're here for you whenever and however you need us. 

    You and your family will be in my prayers.
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  • I'm so sorry for the loss of your son. I do believe God hears us and answers our prayers, though sometimes the answer is not one we like. I'm glad you got to have that dream and see him again. 
    On 10/23/13 Baby Sophie and Baby Gabriel born at 21+5 weeks. They grew wings and flew away from us. May God bless them always. We love you beans!
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  • I'm so sorry for the loss of your son Gabriel. Good to hear you had a comforting dream about him. Hugs
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  • So sorry for your loss of sweet Gabriel. Know that we are hear for you whenever you need us!

  • Thank you so much to all you ladies.
  • I'm so sorry for your loss of sweet Gabriel. We are here whenever you need us.
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