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Late Term and Child Loss
Poisonives
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My Baby Bid Farewell
Poisonives
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I am one of the first time mothers out there who lost their baby during the second trimester...
On Nov 26, 2013, we were going to meet a maternal-fetal specialist for a level 3 ultrasound. Our 22 weeks old baby has a single umbilical artery and the doctors were concerned of some abnormalities with the baby. We were nervous and prepared to accept whatever abnormalities we will find out then. But of course, we weren't prepared enough to hear the worst case. The doctor couldn't find a heart beat. He said the baby could have been gone for few days now.
I believe you understand how heart broken we were. My poor dear husband and I cried so much.
It suddenly came to me the dream that I had several days ago before we learned about what happened to our little angel. In my dream, I already had the baby. For some reason the baby was left inside the car. When I learned about this, I panicked while searching for my little one. There he was left in the car. It was hot and cramped in there. I held my baby. He was sleeping peacefully but I shook him a bit to see if he is okay. He woke up very innocently and looked around just content of the world. No complains about the heat, the tightness in the car and most of all how we left him there. In my heart, I felt he said "I'm okay mommy". I knew that this was the time he left us. He said good bye to us and letting us know not to worry about him for he is in a better place.
The day I was discharged in the hospital was before Thanksgiving. That night, I cried so hard again. I missed my little Gabriel so much. I asked God with all my heart if I can just hold him again. Although I know there is no way it will happen. But God works in wondrous ways and He listens. Again, I had a dream. I was in my wedding party. It seemed different though. I saw my baby in a swaddling cloth, sleeping. I held him in my arms and he woke up, all smiles and giggling. It was the best feeling I had in days. It felt good feeling like a mom even in a dream.
I know my son is an angel and he is watching over us.
On Nov 26, 2013, we were going to meet a maternal-fetal specialist for a level 3 ultrasound. Our 22 weeks old baby has a single umbilical artery and the doctors were concerned of some abnormalities with the baby. We were nervous and prepared to accept whatever abnormalities we will find out then. But of course, we weren't prepared enough to hear the worst case. The doctor couldn't find a heart beat. He said the baby could have been gone for few days now.
I believe you understand how heart broken we were. My poor dear husband and I cried so much.
It suddenly came to me the dream that I had several days ago before we learned about what happened to our little angel. In my dream, I already had the baby. For some reason the baby was left inside the car. When I learned about this, I panicked while searching for my little one. There he was left in the car. It was hot and cramped in there. I held my baby. He was sleeping peacefully but I shook him a bit to see if he is okay. He woke up very innocently and looked around just content of the world. No complains about the heat, the tightness in the car and most of all how we left him there. In my heart, I felt he said "I'm okay mommy". I knew that this was the time he left us. He said good bye to us and letting us know not to worry about him for he is in a better place.
The day I was discharged in the hospital was before Thanksgiving. That night, I cried so hard again. I missed my little Gabriel so much. I asked God with all my heart if I can just hold him again. Although I know there is no way it will happen. But God works in wondrous ways and He listens. Again, I had a dream. I was in my wedding party. It seemed different though. I saw my baby in a swaddling cloth, sleeping. I held him in my arms and he woke up, all smiles and giggling. It was the best feeling I had in days. It felt good feeling like a mom even in a dream.
I know my son is an angel and he is watching over us.
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Re: My Baby Bid Farewell
TTC since 2008
Dh:34, no issues. Me:31, Endo, slightly hypothyroid, deformed ovary, paracentric inversion.
4 Gonal-F, Cetrotide, HcG, Crinone +TI cycles= all BFN
Lap in 2012 to remove large unresolving cyst discovered endo and double lobed ovary.
6 Gonal-F, Cetrotide, HcG, Crinone IUI cycles= All BFN,
1st IVF w/ICSI- June '13 Antagonist: Gonal-F, Menopur, Ganirelix, HcG, Estradiol, Crinone= 7 retrieved, 4 mature, 1 unfertilized, 2 abnormally fertilized, 1 normally fertilized. 2DT of only embryo and our miracle BFP.
Our beloved baby boy was born sleeping Oct. 13, 2013 due to pROM/IC/Uterine infection.
2nd IVF w/ICSI- Feb. '14 EPP/lupron/antagonist: Estrace, lupron, HGH, Gonal-F, Menopur, HcG, PIO, lovenox, doxy/dex.=21 retrieved, 16 mature, 15 fertilized!! 5dt of 1 blast/ 6 frozen. BFP! Beta 1 9dp5dt:83.9 Beta 2: 11dp5dt: 145.2 Beta 3 14dp5dt: 497 Please be our sticky rainbow baby!
Brooke Elizabeth born Feb 17, 2013 grew wings May 9, 2013 @ 11 weeks & 4 days old from SIDS
BFP #2 - EDD 2/26/12 M/C 6/28/11 @ 5w2d
BFP #3 - EDD 4/7/12 M/C 8/2/11 @ 4w2d
Too beautiful for this earth
BFP #4 - EDD 12/09/12, Lucille arrived 11/26/12
I'm so sorry for the loss of your precious Gabriel.... know that we're here for you whenever and however you need us.
You and your family will be in my prayers.