Intro

OutdoorGirl10

Hi everyone, I've been lurking here for about the last month and I have to say that thanks to your candid posts I don't feel as alone in this journey as I did a month ago.  I really needed some support and even though I've basically just been lurking, you've all been incredibly helpful. Sending you all virtual 'thank you' hugs!

DH and I had been TTC naturally on and off since 2005. We'd try for a while and then stop, then start again and stop. We stopped on and off for a variety of reasons, I was ready - he wasn't, major job stress (like insane job stress), moving, just didn't feel like it, we both broke body parts, and other stuff. Over the course of those years it was incredibly difficult to get email after email from my friends announcing they're pregnant and going to baby shower after baby shower, all while we struggled.

At the time I told myself I was OK because it was MY decision to not be pregnant at that point. I naively believed everyone that said I had plenty of time (perhaps a basic biology refresher would have been helpful to remind me that no, I did not have plenty of time).  But during the times when we were trying I didn't understand what we were doing wrong and why it wasn't happening for us. 

Finally in 2012 after consistently trying for a while with no luck we started testing. We found out DH has high volume but low motility & morphology. We did 3 rounds of IUI with no luck. The 3rd failed attempt was particularly hard because we really really thought we had it that time.

We took another break because we moved again. Once we settled in I admit I took longer than I probably should have because I was scared to start IVF.  I was using moving and having to find docs closer to home to as a good excuse to hold off starting the process. I was in a really bad space, very annoyed that this was my life and that it was not going to be an easy route.

My first meeting with the RE made me feel so much better. He was realistic but hopeful. I still have my bad days but I'm working on turning the negative thoughts into more positive ones so I don't become completely bitter.  I'm now in the 2WW and am trying to stay focused on non baby stuff to get through it.

Good luck to all of us going through this process. (Still trying to figure out how to add all the cool stuff to my siggie, so sorry it's so boring right now!)

LSN8308

oh my goodness, what a ride you've had! *hugs* welcome to the boards and i hope your stay here is short and you'll be on your way to the PAIF section! best of luck with your beta and keep us posted  

Jetta83306

Hello and welcome. Hope your stay here is short!

TaylorH84

Welcome! You've been through a lot! Hope this is it for you! Goodluck!

hopefulsprout

Welcome! I hope you don't have to stay here very long---you've been through quite a it already! GL w/your beta!

mindaa

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Love your screen name... and that you and DH both had broken bones in the time frame, you sound like a cool couple  

Hopefully you've already found it, but there is also a TTC after 35 board for others who thought we had "plenty of time."  

halle83

Welcome! Thanks for sharing your story! Good luck!!!

Margritli

I am sorry that you've had such a long journey up to this point, I also spent a long time telling myself that we weren't getting pregnant because I wasn't 100% sure and felt for a long time that it was my fault. Good luck! I hope your stay is short and sweet.