Hi ladies, how did you deal with your loss(es)? I think I lost my voice from screaming and crying like a total idiot. I'm feeling better today, but still very confused as to what our problem is. I'm super healthy, and young. I'm completely at a loss.

Married to DH 8-26-12TTC Since 12-1-12
BFP 8-14-13 Miscarried 9-8-13
BFP 11-17-13 Miscarried 12-9-13
Hoping my rainbow will come soon. 
Re: how did you deal?
Before I jump in, I'll note that our board has dealt more with late pregnancy [second or third trimester] losses and the loss of an infant/child. While some of us, unfortunately, have also dealt with miscarriage, there is a specific board for miscarriages that may be more helpful - especially if you're trying to find resources [testing, medication etc.] to help guide you towards your rainbow.
I lost my son at 34.5 weeks in August 2012, and it was the toughest time of my entire life. I wasn't quite sure how I would make it through without him, how I was supposed to plan his funeral, how I was supposed to pack his room up that had been set for him to go. It took many months of journaling, counseling and family/friend support to feel like I could move forward with my life and be OK again. Even now, almost 1.5 years later, I still have hard days. I know that the process of losing a child is hard...I wish you peace and comfort as you get through this and, hopefully, have your rainbow. *hugs*
I lost my daughter at 38 wks 4 days so we had a memorial and I cremated her and I tell you I cried for 3 weeks straight I didnt get out of bed for 3 weeks. I barely ate , I did nothing but cry. I am now 2 years out and it still hurts like you can't believe. I held my baby who weighed 10lbs 3 oz and was perfect there was no reason why she passed away she just died. It isn't fair!!
Heather
Brooke Elizabeth born Feb 17, 2013 grew wings May 9, 2013 @ 11 weeks & 4 days old from SIDS
In the weeks after his death, I would go to sleep crying, cry throughout the night, and wake up crying. I couldn't come out of my room until 11am or later, and couldn't eat more than tea and maybe a few apple slices. I lost 12 lbs in what felt like days.
Tomorrow marks 2 months since Jesse's passing and birth, and while I am no longer in that black hole of grief, I still struggle daily. The only way I can say I get through it, is to just get through it. Luckily, my body doesn't need my permission to keep breathing, to keep living- If it did, I might not have made it.
Go at a pace that is doable for you, and know that there is no short cut
TTC since 2008
Dh:34, no issues. Me:31, Endo, slightly hypothyroid, deformed ovary, paracentric inversion.
4 Gonal-F, Cetrotide, HcG, Crinone +TI cycles= all BFN
Lap in 2012 to remove large unresolving cyst discovered endo and double lobed ovary.
6 Gonal-F, Cetrotide, HcG, Crinone IUI cycles= All BFN,
1st IVF w/ICSI- June '13 Antagonist: Gonal-F, Menopur, Ganirelix, HcG, Estradiol, Crinone= 7 retrieved, 4 mature, 1 unfertilized, 2 abnormally fertilized, 1 normally fertilized. 2DT of only embryo and our miracle BFP.
Our beloved baby boy was born sleeping Oct. 13, 2013 due to pROM/IC/Uterine infection.
2nd IVF w/ICSI- Feb. '14 EPP/lupron/antagonist: Estrace, lupron, HGH, Gonal-F, Menopur, HcG, PIO, lovenox, doxy/dex.=21 retrieved, 16 mature, 15 fertilized!! 5dt of 1 blast/ 6 frozen. BFP! Beta 1 9dp5dt:83.9 Beta 2: 11dp5dt: 145.2 Beta 3 14dp5dt: 497 Please be our sticky rainbow baby!