Am I crazy?

imcalledmom13

I have two beautiful healthy children. When the first was born, we found out he had a rare bleeding disorder caused by my body (thrombocytopenia). He spent some time in he nicu until he was healthy enough to come home. He is fine now.

Fast forward 5 years and we decided to have another baby. Because of what was discovered with the first, I had to be hooked up to an iv every Friday for 8 hours, from 20 weeks on. I also had to have a cordocentesis. Because of all of this, we decided to have my tubes tied since I was having a csection and we had a boy and a girl.

Now, 6 years later, I'm having a really hard time letting go of the fact that we are done. Growing up I always dreamed of having 3 kids and I just don't feel complete. In the past I've been able to push it out of my mind but I can't seem to this time. I know there are ways around the tubes being tied (ivf) and I could even deal with all I went through again. It's just frustrating feeling this way.

Do I sound crazy? Thanks for listening.

SmileyJay

Is adoption not something you are open to? I think given all of the other factors, it would an awesome way to add to your family if you were willing. 

You don't sound crazy. We have no kids but have dreams of having 3+ kids... if health problems arise I have no idea how I would feel or want to push forward. How does your husband feel about a 3rd child? This is something the two of you have to decide. 

bugandbibs

Sometimes, it's really hard to grieve the loss of how we thought things would be. You aren't crazy to think about alternate scenarios or wanting more kids. Whether or not you add to your family is between you and your husband. Adoption may be a good option for you.