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Final result

pettycrockerpettycrocker member
edited December 2013 in Secondary IF
So I absolutely do not want to make a new thread when there are already like 99 threads for me, but I just want to make sure that everyone who is waiting to hear the news can get to it directly and not worrying about checking all 99 threads :P 



The result is: NEGATIVE. 

Which I already anticipated, I've had a few days to come to terms with that, but I'd be lying if I said it didn't sting hearing how sad the nurse was for me. I was trying to be tough, saying "Yes, I was anticipating that" but her "Oh, I'm so sorry honey" was like gut wrenching. I am in a better place today than I was when I realized it didn't work on Friday, but I am still very raw. I just keep thinking this is it, this is the highest level of intervention they can do to get me pregnant, and it fucking failed. 

To make matters worse, back when I first started my Lupron back in Oct, when I was deliriously optimistic, I ordered a tshirt for my DD that says "Big Sister" and OF COURSE it comes today, just a few minutes before I got the call. Double Whammy. 


Thank you all for your support, positive thoughts, and prayers. I truly appreciate it. 


P.S as it stands right now, I'm going to see if I can cycle again at the end of Dec, and be on BMBs with my BFFL  @Freakyfast. I'm going to hold on to that as my silver lining :P 


Spontaneous pregnancy #1
DD1 July 31, 2011

Trying for #2 since Oct 11
732973 Clomid Cycles
2 IUIs 
3 Fresh IVFs= 1 Ectopic treated with MTX
Spontaneous pregnancy #2= Ectopic #2= lost left tube
Spontaneous pregnancy #3= DD2 January 29, 2016
Spontaneous pregnancy #4= Ectopic #3
Spontaneous pregnancy #5= Baby #3 is a BOY!!! 



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Re: Final result

  • freakyfastfreakyfast member
    ((((HUGS)))) to you.  Sending you so much love BFFL.  :-*



      


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  • tuscanbride2007tuscanbride2007 member

    =((

    I am so sorry. ((HUGS))

    BFP #1 12.24.07 - DD born @ 39w1d on 08.26.08
    BFP #2 08.04.11 - DD born still @ 37w3d on 03.25.12

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    TTC #3 since May 2012

    BFP #3 12.29.12 - CP @ 4w2d on 01.02.13
    BFP #4 10.17.13 - CP @ 4w2d on 10.23.13
    BFP #5 04.06.14 - MMC 05.07.14

    No longer trying to conceive.

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  • KC1212KC1212 member
    awwww hon, I'm so very very sorry :( Big (((hugs))) your way.
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    Me: 27 DH: 33
    Married 6 years
    Conceived DS after 4 years of MFI

    TTC # 2 (not trying,not preventing ever)
    May 2013 - August 2013 Timed Intercourse = BFN
    September 2013 Timed Intercourse, Weekly Acupuncture, Herbs=BFN
    October 2013 Timed Intercourse, Weekly Acupuncture, Herbs, and "warming foods" = BFP
    Beta #1 19, Beta #2 18 Progesterone 4.6 Miscarried 11/9/13
    November 2013 - Benched, waiting for first post-loss AF.
    No longer benched per New RE/OB!
    Jan. 15 2014 - BFP. HCG 3900 - Ectopic :( 
    Jan. 16 2014 Left tube removed and D&C
    March 2, 2014 First AF


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  • CheesyPeasCheesyPeas member

    I am so so sorry. ((hugs))

    The universe just isn't ready to see an end to the @freakyfast & Mrs Castillo love fest. :) It's a powerhouse BMB in the making.

    November 2010 - 10.5 week loss  o:) 
    October 2011 - DS (7)  <3 
    July 2014 - Stillborn DD (24 weeks)  o:) 
    August 2015 - DD (3)  <3 
    April 2018 - 5 week loss o:) 

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  • gmc222gmc222 member

    *ticker warning*

    I was rooting for you 100% and am so sad to hear your news. I hope you do try again soon because I know it will happen for you. {{big hugs}}

     

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    TTC #2

    Clomid 50 mg + IUI#1  = BFP, m/c and D&C at 7w1d

    Clomid 50mg + IUI#2 = BFN

    Clomid 100mg + IUI#3 = BFN

    Lupron + Follistim + IVF#1 = 11ER, 10M, 10F, ET of 1 expanded BBA 5-day blast, 2 Frosties. BFP! Beta 10/13 = 264! Beta 10/15 = 702! EDD 6/21/14

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  • pettycrockerpettycrocker member
    CheesyPeas said:

    I am so so sorry. ((hugs))

    The universe just isn't ready to see an end to the @freakyfast & Mrs Castillo love fest. :) It's a powerhouse BMB in the making.

    LOL I love this! 


    Spontaneous pregnancy #1
    DD1 July 31, 2011

    Trying for #2 since Oct 11
    732973 Clomid Cycles
    2 IUIs 
    3 Fresh IVFs= 1 Ectopic treated with MTX
    Spontaneous pregnancy #2= Ectopic #2= lost left tube
    Spontaneous pregnancy #3= DD2 January 29, 2016
    Spontaneous pregnancy #4= Ectopic #3
    Spontaneous pregnancy #5= Baby #3 is a BOY!!! 



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  • freakyfastfreakyfast member
    Mrs Castillo said:
    CheesyPeas said:

    I am so so sorry. ((hugs))

    The universe just isn't ready to see an end to the @freakyfast & Mrs Castillo love fest. :) It's a powerhouse BMB in the making.

    LOL I love this! 

    I was about to say the same thing... That BMB board won't know what hit them! 



      


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  • kndeckarkndeckar member
    I'm so sorry :( I'm in awe of your attitude. Keep at it girl. ((Hugs))
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  • Momarazzi007Momarazzi007 member
    I'm so sorry. You are an inspiration of strong and keep that shirt- she will need it!!! Big hugs and good thing are coming!!!
    January 2007- Stop BCP! Let's DO this!
    June 2010- MFI. BS. IVF! Ectopic. BS. image

    November 2010- FAILED FET! BS!
    January 2011- BFP FET! TWINS!     February 2011- lost twin. BS. image

    SEPTEMBER 2011- DD Born! Most awesome girl in the world!
    November 2013- FAILED FET! BS! (screw you November FETs)
    April Fresh Cycle, FAILED. Frozen embryos frozen for future FETs.
    FROZEN CYCLE JUNE! BFP
    BABY BOY VINCENT!
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  • +SouthernMomma++SouthernMomma+ member
    Big hugs you way!
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  • annibesannibes member
    I'm sorry.
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  • CeCe8579CeCe8579 member
    I'm so sorry! Big hugs!!!! 
    Carly
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    Birdie born 05/01/2007
    Rainbow Surprise Baby due 05/26/2017                                          


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  • Jen071407Jen071407 member
    Ugh, I'm so very sorry it didn't work this time. I know there is a bfp in your future, I'd bet my pirate pants on it!  :ar! And I'm so keeping my FX that for some crazy reason I end up on the BMB with you and @freakyfast, that'd be bomb diggity! Big ((hugs)) your way! 

    Two DDs 10/08 and 08/10, no primary IF
    TTC #3 since 10/2011 - dx unexplained/weak ovulation
     3 BFN clomid + TI cycles, 5 BFN clomid/gonal f IUIs, 1 mmc IUI
    2/19/2014 IVF #1 Unexpected low E2 (oversuppressed) -> increased to max doses = 3 or 4 follicles, converting to IUI
    BFFP Saw 1 beautiful heartbeat at 6w6d, follow up u/s at 9w showed mmc. Eff this.
    NTNP 5/2014-9/2014, OPKs and TI 10/2014 - 1/2015. 
    RPL testing all normal, AFC, AMH, and FSH all normal. 
    IVF 1.2 1/22/2014 natural cycle start, AFC 28, 300 gonal f/150menopur. 
    ER 2/3/15 14R 8M 3F w/ICSI Day 5 transfer on 2/8/15 of one "Grade A+" blast and have TWO frosties! 

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  • freakyfastfreakyfast member
    Jen071407 said:
    And I'm so keeping my FX that for some crazy reason I end up on the BMB with you and @freakyfast, that'd be bomb diggity! Big ((hugs)) your way! 
    I can dig it! 



      


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  • CheesyPeasCheesyPeas member
    Jen071407 said:
    Ugh, I'm so very sorry it didn't work this time. I know there is a bfp in your future, I'd bet my pirate pants on it!  :ar! And I'm so keeping my FX that for some crazy reason I end up on the BMB with you and @freakyfast, that'd be bomb diggity! Big ((hugs)) your way! 

    Count me in too!  Bomb diggity indeed!
    November 2010 - 10.5 week loss  o:) 
    October 2011 - DS (7)  <3 
    July 2014 - Stillborn DD (24 weeks)  o:) 
    August 2015 - DD (3)  <3 
    April 2018 - 5 week loss o:) 

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  • chrissynenachrissynena member
    Oh so sorry! Love your great attitude, it keeps us all going.

    TTC for 1.5 years with a crappy RE. 12 cycles with clomid (11 too many)
    New RE, 3 failed IUI's moving to IVF with ICSI
    IVF#1 BFP EDD 1/10/13
    Beta#1 51  Beta #2 148
    A/S 8/20/13 Team Pink
    Induced week 39 due to severe GD
    Baby girl born 1/4/13

           TTC #2 2 failed IUI's moving on to FET 3/2014
    ET 3/25 
    Beta #1 127
    Beta #2 845
    U/s 4/22 It's TWINS!!
    Team Purple!!

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  • pettycrockerpettycrocker member
    CheesyPeas said:
    Jen071407 said:
    Ugh, I'm so very sorry it didn't work this time. I know there is a bfp in your future, I'd bet my pirate pants on it!  :ar! And I'm so keeping my FX that for some crazy reason I end up on the BMB with you and @freakyfast, that'd be bomb diggity! Big ((hugs)) your way! 

    Count me in too!  Bomb diggity indeed!
    WITH WHIPPED CREAM ON TOP!!




    :ar!


    Spontaneous pregnancy #1
    DD1 July 31, 2011

    Trying for #2 since Oct 11
    732973 Clomid Cycles
    2 IUIs 
    3 Fresh IVFs= 1 Ectopic treated with MTX
    Spontaneous pregnancy #2= Ectopic #2= lost left tube
    Spontaneous pregnancy #3= DD2 January 29, 2016
    Spontaneous pregnancy #4= Ectopic #3
    Spontaneous pregnancy #5= Baby #3 is a BOY!!! 



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  • ally510ally510 member
    Huge (((hugs))) to you. I'm rooting for you and freakyfast to remain in this journey together. When (not if) you move to your new BMB together, I'm so going to lurk and observe your antics!
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  • lucky7wifelucky7wife member
    So sorry.  May the days to come bring clarity and hope!
    Trying for #2 with IVF after damage done in a D&C left me with one functioning (but too scarred) ovary and tube to get pregnant safely without assistance. It's a really, really long story, but that is the gist of it.  We have one daughter (whose c-section birth started this roller coaster) born in 2012 after a miscarriage in 2011. 
    Failed 1st attempt at IVF (Fresh ET day 3, 1 frozen embryo saved) in December 2013.  
    Failed 2nd attempt at IVF (Fresh ET day 5, 2 frozen embryos saved) in February 2014.
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  • SnowflakeBride06SnowflakeBride06 member
    Lady! I am so sorry about this. You did your very very best. I will keep you in my t&p for clarity, hope and peace.  

    Lots of love 


     6/09 right tube loss (fallopian torsion) 12/09 BFP #1 (DD born 9/10)
    8/12 dx Lupus (ANA+/APA-), 12/12 BFP #2  natural m/c 6w 2d 
    TTC#2  since 9/12  50mg Clomid/Ovidrel IUI #1 Beta 10/4=BFN
                                 50mg Clomid/Ovidrel IUI #2 Beta 11/1= BFN
                                      100 mg Clomid/Ovidrel IUI #3 Beta 12/26=BFFN
    100 mg Clomid/Ovidrel IUI #4 Beta 2/14= BFFN
    Took a LONG Break
    Lots of Luck and Love BFPB for life KOFMKG
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  • GraceyandTroyGraceyandTroy member
    I'm so sorry. That stinks. There are so many people rooting for you. It must work out eventually for sure!
    Happily Mrs. C 
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    start ttc #1 in Jan 2009
    dx PCOS in May 2010, begin metformin
    Two failed clomid cycles (made lining too thin)
    Started acupuncture while saving for IVF in Sept 2011
    Add herbal infusions to the mix in Dec 2011
    Hoping holistic approach works!!!

    BFP on April 2012 at 11dpo
    Meepy Man born on Jan 2013 - Hip Hip Hurray!

    Ready to start ttc #2 April 2013, but plan to be an extended BF'er
    Back on metformin Aug 2013
    Restart herbal infusions Sept 2013 - currently drinking nettle, oatstraw, and red raspberry leaf
    DS weaned in April 2014
    Taking a break from herbs and just riding the healthy train.  
    Planning medicated cycle end of summer.  FX I get KU before then!!!
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  • ScarletBegonia79ScarletBegonia79 member
    i am so sorry :(

    TTC #2 since 8/2012

    IUI #1 April 2014: BFN

    IUI #2 July 2014: BFN

    IUI #3 August 2014: BFN

    BFP: September 15, due May 22nd 2015

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  • breeanne1974breeanne1974 member

    So sorry to hear this. There are simply no words for the pain of hearing "negative" from the nurse.

    It's been a week since my call and I still tear up just thinking of it. I'm an absolute mess.

    We can be on a break together - we are going to try IUI with the remaining Gonal F I have with my next cycle, probably in January.

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    Don't hump it, Love it! 

    Happily married since Feb 2010, Sweet DD born Oct 2010, 39 years old, blocked tube, low . 09 AMH and high 21 FSH

    It's not him, it's me!

    September 2013 failed IUI - left blocked tube

    November 2013 IVF - premature ovulation converted to IUI 

    December 2013 "We were <are> on a break!!!" ~ Friends homage

     

    November 2013 protocol: Menopur, Gonal-f RFF Pen 900, Ganirelix 250mcg, baby Asprin, Gonal-f RFF Pen 300, Z Pak, Novarel, Progestrone in Sesame Oil

     

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  • cerad5cerad5 member
    I am so sorry :( Tuck the big sister shirt away for now if you need to. Hugs to you!!!
    DD 12/1/2009
    TTC#2 Since May 2012
    Dx PCOS February 2013 on Metformin 1500 mg
    Met with RE October 2013, we've got a plan!
    Surprise BFP on "break cycle" 10/12/13. EDD 6/17/14.
    MMC discovered 11/25/13 at 10 weeks. D&C 11/27/13.
    BFP 2/8/14 Beta#1: 176, Prog 18! Beta#2:335, Prog, 19.5!
    EDD 10/16/2014

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