Angelversary today. ****ticker warning, pregnancy mentioned****

ajsweeton

It's been one year today since our sweet boys were born. I can hardly believe that a year has passed already. I keep thinking about what might've been and where we'd be today if they hadn't come so very early. I picture my family fawning over them at thanksgiving like they did the u/s pictures and video of the babies I'm carrying now. I hate it that they never got to meet Elliott and Ryland and love them like we did. I also feel so guilty for being pregnant right now and feeling happy again. I know that these babies will never replace Elliott and Ryland, but it just feels wrong to have something to celebrate at this time. We went to the cemetery yesterday and took them their Christmas tree. It just kills me to think of my beautiful babies there in the ground when they should be growing and smiling with me.

Bayberry12

So many hugs to you. This is a hard day, I know being pregnant again complicates all the feelings. I often think about what our family would be like if Stella had lived, especially around the holidays.

I hope you can have some peace today thinking of your little ones.

Noethola

***Siggy warning***

I will be in your shoes on Sunday. Its so very hard. We cannot help but think about those who are not here, and what life should have been. Thinking of you and your DH today. 

kz's_girlygirl

I am so sorry   Lots of love to you today

irons633

So sorry sweetie!! Hugs to you!!

BrittianyM

Hugs to you!

VyD81

Huge hug on the twins angelversary.

stefuge

Huge hugs. I hope the day goes by without too much tears and pain. And it's okay to be happy again. The babies you are carrying now need your love just as much as your angels, and there will be lots of happy and sad times in the months to come. ((Hugs))

diamante1181

I'm so truly sorry. *hugs*

Heatherhah

Thinking of you !!!

cawettig

I am so sorry, Big Hugs your way! Sweet that you brought them a tree. I remember my Grandma bringing my sister who passed a wreath every year to her resting place on Christmas Eve. 

ajsweeton

Thank you so much for your support. I feel like I've been such a mess this last week. My boys have been constantly on my mind I just miss them so much. Dealing with being pregnant again is just adding to it. I feel so guilty all around.

schulme2

I am so sorry. Big hugs to you! I'm sure your boys are so happy to be big brothers!