Dear Diary

pettycrocker

Totally missed that today was Friday.  Idk what I would do without @freakyfast :P she always remembers  

Newbies, this is where we vent our random frustrations (or happy thoughts) Please feel free to post abundantly. 

 

pettycrocker

Dear Diary, 

I'm having a "fuck everything" moment. The holidays get me every single year. Plus I feel like I am in a real winter funk. 

Signed, 

Potato

LuckyJuJu

Ok what is the potato reference? I want in on the inside story.

Otherwise, it is first day of stims for me and I am not feeling too good. I know it'll all be worth it... But I do feel nauseas... And my husband can NOT have anymore leftover baked beans today.... I am going to suffocate from holding my breath or puke from the odors.... Ok that is my rant

pettycrocker

There's no real back story. One day @tickettuesday was ranting and raving, and at the end of it all she just threw a "potato" for good measure. Ever since then, we all keep throwing it back out there randomly :P 

It was serious, serious, serious, then... potato. So random

LuckyJuJu

Ah! I know how those things tend to happen course you missed a great opportunity to come up something creative to fool the noob!

freakyfast

Dear Diary,
I messed up. I was not supposed to pick anything up over 10 pds for 6 weeks after surgery. Well I picked up my 6 yr old nephew twice yesterday and I'm paying for it. My back is killing me and my ovs keep twitching. Started shopping at 9pm last night into today and I have been in horrible pain since I got out of the car last night to shop.

Boo. Oh and I'm so tired but don't want to sleep.

xoxo
freaky

ally510

@freakyfast - relax & take a load off today!

My DD is going through a mommy phase and she's on me like hair on soap. I'm so over it.

pettycrocker

freakyfast said:

Dear Diary, I messed up. I was not supposed to pick anything up over 10 pds for 6 weeks after surgery. Well I picked up my 6 yr old nephew twice yesterday and I'm paying for it. My back is killing me and my ovs keep twitching. Started shopping at 9pm last night into today and I have been in horrible pain since I got out of the car last night to shop. Boo. Oh and I'm so tired but don't want to sleep. xoxo freaky

Ruh Roh. No bueno, lady. Take it easy this weekend. Hope you feel better quickly   

CeCe8579

I hate cold weather. *throwing a potato at it*

Jen071407

Dear Diary,
Yet another pregnancy announcement from a family friend. Happy for them, sad for my empty ute.
Potato. Potato. POTATO.

kndeckar

Jen071407 said:

Dear Diary,
Yet another pregnancy announcement from a family friend. Happy for them, sad for my empty ute.
Potato. Potato. POTATO.

I'm with you on that. My FB friends are dwindling fast because every time someone announces a pregnancy (if it's not close friends or family) I delete them. Seriously it's like an automatic response. I have problems.

+SouthernMomma+

Dear Diary,

I've put myself In a time out this month for a break cycle... But I can feel O coming and its giving me extreme anxiety. I know I really really need this break, but im having a hard time coping with it. I feel like I should be peeing on something or checking my CM. Not DTD right now feels so OFF! & all The "what if's" thoughts are getting on my nerves.  

I think i'll go back to my corner and put my nose in the wall now :-/

 

bcw2009

I am in a bit of a time out this month too! No opks, no temperatures, no FF app on my phone and absolutely no driving myself crazy during our family's Christmas season!! I am not going to intentionally abstain during our fertile week but no timed sex either :!!
I have also made a pact with myself that I would not even think about a HPT until Jan 1st! I know that 10DPO will fall right around Dec 23/24 and as much as a BFP would make for a WONDERFUL Christmas-the should I test/should I not decision and the high possibility of a BFN on Christmas Eve is not worth the risk! To help make my mission successful and really eliminate any temptation-look what I put in the trash today...

bcw2009

PS-They are in a target bag tied up and ready for the trash (our actual can has been out on the curb all day for garbage day).  If anyone wants these...PM me your address and I will mail them to you!  I don't think I want them in my house anymore as testing is just not good for me

+SouthernMomma+

bcw2009 said:

I am in a bit of a time out this month too! No opks, no temperatures, no FF app on my phone and absolutely no driving myself crazy during our family's Christmas season!! I am not going to intentionally abstain during our fertile week but no timed sex either :!! I have also made a pact with myself that I would not even think about a HPT until Jan 1st! I know that 10DPO will fall right around Dec 23/24 and as much as a BFP would make for a WONDERFUL Christmas-the should I test/should I not decision and the high possibility of a BFN on Christmas Eve is not worth the risk! To help make my mission successful and really eliminate any temptation-look what I put in the trash today...

OMG you have more self control than I ever will.

Sadly, Id pee on all of them in one day, probably.

I have a problem! LOL

kndeckar

bcw2009 said:

PS-They are in a target bag tied up and ready for the trash (our actual
can has been out on the curb all day for garbage day).  If anyone wants
these...PM me your address and I will mail them to you!  I don't think I
want them in my house anymore as testing is just not good for me

Are they OPKs or HPTs?? I would love them! I ran out of Wondfos 2 months ago & FRER are getting expensive!

bcw2009

+SouthernMomma+ NO-I do not have any self control-that is why I need them out of my house!!  When AF was coming last week I peed on 5 HPTs just to get rid of them and I thought they were gone...then I found 10 more all wrapped up in an elastic band in my drawer!!
[-(
kndeckar there are 3 OPKs and 10 HPTs.  PM me your address and I will send the HPTs to you!

kndeckar

bcw2009 said:

+SouthernMomma+ NO-I do not have any self control-that is why I need them out of my house!!  When AF was coming last week I peed on 5 HPTs just to get rid of them and I thought they were gone...then I found 10 more all wrapped up in an elastic band in my drawer!!
[-(
kndeckar there are 3 OPKs and 10 HPTs.  PM me your address and I will send the HPTs to you!

Done! Thank you!!

+SouthernMomma+

bcw2009 said:

I am in a bit of a time out this month too! No opks, no temperatures, no FF app on my phone and absolutely no driving myself crazy during our family's Christmas season!! I am not going to intentionally abstain during our fertile week but no timed sex either :!! I have also made a pact with myself that I would not even think about a HPT until Jan 1st! I know that 10DPO will fall right around Dec 23/24 and as much as a BFP would make for a WONDERFUL Christmas-the should I test/should I not decision and the high possibility of a BFN on Christmas Eve is not worth the risk! To help make my mission successful and really eliminate any temptation-look what I put in the trash today...

OMG you have more self control than I ever will.

Sadly, Id pee on all of them in one day, probably.

I have a problem! LOL

bcw2009 said:

+SouthernMomma+ NO-I do not have any self control-that is why I need them out of my house!!  When AF was coming last week I peed on 5 HPTs just to get rid of them and I thought they were gone...then I found 10 more all wrapped up in an elastic band in my drawer!!
[-(
kndeckar there are 3 OPKs and 10 HPTs.  PM me your address and I will send the HPTs to you!

I'm just saying, I couldn't bring myself to throw them away! Lol kudos to you girl. You're much stronger than me!

annibes

Dear Diary,

Why must I be so bitter?? Many of my Facebook friends have no babies, and I don't know if that's by choice or not. So when one of them announces a first pregnancy, I should be HAPPY about that, not disappointed! It's. Not. Always. About. Me.

Ugh. I need to be done punishing myself on Facebook and get back to my homework.

kndeckar

Dear Diary,
WHY WHY WHY did I test early when I knew the trigger shot could still be in my system? I got a BFP on a FRER yesterday morning at 11dpo and today a BFN (it was a stupid blue dye test but still). I'm pretty sure I'm out now. This was our first medicated cycle and I was so hopeful. I really thought this was our month. I'm so over this.

pettycrocker

kndeckar said:

Dear Diary, WHY WHY WHY did I test early when I knew the trigger shot could still be in my system? I got a BFP on a FRER yesterday morning at 11dpo and today a BFN (it was a stupid blue dye test but still). I'm pretty sure I'm out now. This was our first medicated cycle and I was so hopeful. I really thought this was our month. I'm so over this.

Ughh!! This keeps happening lately!! I hope it's just still early, so annoying! 

I know how you feel, going through IVF it seems impossible for it to not work, right? They actually put 2 live babies in my uterus. I was pregnant, all I had to do was stay pregnant? How do you fuck that up? Especially when I've already done it once? Especially when all the tests say there is no reason it's not happening? It's just so ridiculous. 

*Hugs* hopefully it's just a false negative because it's a stupid blue test. Try again in the morning. Good luck. 

Jen071407

@kndeckar and @mrs castillo I am still sending so many positive thoughts to both you ladies! I know how much the false/trigger bfps can mess with your head. Just remember you're not out until af shows. Lots of ((hugs)) to you both!

kndeckar

Thanks @mrs Castillo. It really doesn't make any sense! I'm still keeping my FX for you. Keep us updated!

ally510

@kndeckar & @Mrs Castillo - I'm so sorry it's looking like this cycle may be a bust. Still, I'll keep everything crossed that these are cases late I implanters and you'll get your bfps. Do either of you have frosties? I've read the success rates are better w/ FETs b/c your body has had the opportunity to recover from the retrieval. Also...Mrs Castillo - please don't blame yourself. If it doesn't work this month, it is not due to anything you did or did not do. IF is cruel and so unfair. (((Hugs))) to you both!

pettycrocker

ally510 said:

@kndeckar & @Mrs Castillo - I'm so sorry it's looking like this cycle may be a bust. Still, I'll keep everything crossed that these are cases late I implanters and you'll get your bfps. Do either of you have frosties? I've read the success rates are better w/ FETs b/c your body has had the opportunity to recover from the retrieval. Also...Mrs Castillo - please don't blame yourself. If it doesn't work this month, it is not due to anything you did or did not do. IF is cruel and so unfair. (((Hugs))) to you both!

I'm pretty sure kndekar is still doing IUIs. 

AFM none of my remaining 3 made it past day 5- we weren't going to do a freeze anyway, because my clinic actually has a terrible success rate with FETs, so I knew from the beginning I'd have to cycle again. 

kndeckar

And the saga of this cycle continues ladies... I got a BFP today on my other stupid blue dye test. I'm 14 dpt and 12 or 13 dpo. This is such a mind fvck!! I'm calling my RE today to see when they will let me do betas. And we were actually just doing a medicated cycle with timed intercourse this time. We have no insurance coverage for IF, so if this doesn't work, it would be a while before we could afford IUI and we probably never could afford IVF. Wish me luck!!

pettycrocker

kndeckar said:

And the saga of this cycle continues ladies... I got a BFP today on my other stupid blue dye test. I'm 14 dpt and 12 or 13 dpo. This is such a mind fvck!! I'm calling my RE today to see when they will let me do betas. And we were actually just doing a medicated cycle with timed intercourse this time. We have no insurance coverage for IF, so if this doesn't work, it would be a while before we could afford IUI and we probably never could afford IVF. Wish me luck!!

Oh! This was a FET right? I totally spaced out, for some reason I thought you were still in IUIs. Girl, FETs take a little longer to cook. I'm sure you're fine. Stop doing the blue dye tests- go get an FRER. You got this. 

freakyfast

Mrs Castillo & kndeckar - mucho ((((((((HUGS)))))))))

Jen071407

Mrs Castillo said:

kndeckar said:

And the saga of this cycle continues ladies... I got a BFP today on my other stupid blue dye test. I'm 14 dpt and 12 or 13 dpo. This is such a mind fvck!! I'm calling my RE today to see when they will let me do betas. And we were actually just doing a medicated cycle with timed intercourse this time. We have no insurance coverage for IF, so if this doesn't work, it would be a while before we could afford IUI and we probably never could afford IVF. Wish me luck!!

Oh! This was a FET right? I totally spaced out, for some reason I thought you were still in IUIs. Girl, FETs take a little longer to cook. I'm sure you're fine. Stop doing the blue dye tests- go get an FRER. You got this. 

I think she means it was TI with meds this cycle. Fx for you both!

pettycrocker

Ohhhhhhhhhh, was it Ally who did the FET this cycle? That's what's confusing me, I know someone did the FET, I think kndeckar was doing IUI. I was right the first time, right?! 

C'mon guise, give me a little credit :P 8-}

pettycrocker

Ohhhh wait @kndekar you did TI+ Progesterone this cycle, right?!?!

I'm feeling like a huge derp right now, but I'm gonna pat myself on the back for knowing the business of all your vaginas. 

kndeckar

Mrs Castillo said:

Ohhhh wait @kndekar you did TI+ Progesterone this cycle, right?!?!

I'm feeling like a huge derp right now, but I'm gonna pat myself on the back for knowing the business of all your vaginas. 

Hahahaha!! Cracking up at this. Yes I did Femara + trigger shot + progesterone with TI this cycle.

freakyfast

Dear Diary, 

I swear if they don't get this heater fixed, I am going to work from home.  It is freezing in the effin office! It is 5 degrees outside and I am inside dressed like I am outside.  

It has been over 4 weeks since I have had coffee too. I would really like some.  I have been strong and have not had any, but it is so so hard.  ~O)

pettycrocker

Dear Diary, 

Please send the toddler fairies to deal with this childs' pacifier issue. 

TIA. 

+SouthernMomma+

Dear Diary...

 

Im addicted to buying things for a baby I don't even have yet... I cant help myself.

I see a good deal and BAM. I buy it. My husband wont make eye contact with me when I do this because the first time he crosses me wrong over it im literally going to claw his face off.

On the bright side, WHEN we have a baby all I need is a high chair and car seat now... The nursery is pretty much done. LOL.

Don't judge me -_-

 

pettycrocker

+SouthernMomma+ said:

Dear Diary...

 

Im addicted to buying things for a baby I don't even have yet... I cant help myself.

I see a good deal and BAM. I buy it. My husband wont make eye contact with me when I do this because the first time he crosses me wrong over it im literally going to claw his face off.

On the bright side, WHEN we have a baby all I need is a high chair and car seat now... The nursery is pretty much done. LOL.

Don't judge me -_-

 

Girl, I was JUST telling @freakyfast how I can't stop buying maternity clothes every time I see a sale LOL. 

I thought I was the only crackpot who did foolish things like this. 

pettycrocker

Some people say it's a jinx to buy shit in advance, but I believe I am just letting the universe know exactly what I want  

+SouthernMomma+

Mrs Castillo said:

+SouthernMomma+ said:

Dear Diary...

 

Im addicted to buying things for a baby I don't even have yet... I cant help myself.

I see a good deal and BAM. I buy it. My husband wont make eye contact with me when I do this because the first time he crosses me wrong over it im literally going to claw his face off.

On the bright side, WHEN we have a baby all I need is a high chair and car seat now... The nursery is pretty much done. LOL.

Don't judge me -_-

 

Girl, I was JUST telling @freakyfast how I can't stop buying maternity clothes every time I see a sale LOL. 

I thought I was the only crackpot who did foolish things like this. 

Haha apparently not!! & damn I didn't even think about buying maternity clothes, thanks a lot. Excuse me while I add that to my list too. LOL :P I really cannot help it, its so odd. But I don't care. lol.

+SouthernMomma+

Mrs Castillo said:

Some people say it's a jinx to buy shit in advance, but I believe I am just letting the universe know exactly what I want  

Those people can kisssss my ass! Obviously they've never heard of "PLANNED PARENTHOOD"?!  & we will get to enjoy our pregnancy stress free lol :P sooooo hmph!

pettycrocker

I haven't thought of buying baby shit because I still have tons of baby shit in the house now, but I gave all my old mat. clothes to my sister, soooooooooooo time for new stuff!! Yeeeeeeeee