Faith Friday

schulme2

I Hope everyone made it through Thanksgiving alright!

With everything you've gone through, what do you thank God for the most?

At this point right now, do you feel like you're growing in your faith or stuck?

Anything else you're struggling with or have turned a corner on recently?

diamante1181

I thank God the most for my husband. He has been my rock through all of this.

I think I am growing in faith. Last night I read a few verses from the Bible, when I felt I couldn't go on. That was a big step for me.

I'm struggling perhaps more now with the longing for my babies. I think it is really settling in the fact that I have no babies to look forward to, and I still haven't put away my maternity clothes. This hasn't been a great week overall, and I'm worried I'll crack at work next week when I go back. 

stefuge

**DS mentioned**

With everything you've gone through, what do you thank God for the most?

My DH and DS. They are the reason I get out of bed most days. Also those friends and family who have really been there, been supportive, wanted to talk about it all.

At this point right now, do you feel like you're growing in your faith or stuck?

I feel like I am growing in my faith, trying to be positive and grateful even in the face of our loss. Trying to use what I am going through to help others and be supportive for them.

Anything else you're struggling with or have turned a corner on recently?

struggling with some anger - towards people who I thought would be there for us and aren't, towards our doctor for not being extra cautious during Colton's pregnancy even though we had complications with DS1's pregnancy, towards God in general that we don't know the cause of our loss, and we probably won't, towards the random "friends" on Facebook and their pregnancy announcements.

stefuge

diamante1181 said:

I thank God the most for my husband. He has been my rock through all of this.

I think I am growing in faith. Last night I read a few verses from the Bible, when I felt I couldn't go on. That was a big step for me.

I'm struggling perhaps more now with the longing for my babies. I think it is really settling in the fact that I have no babies to look forward to, and I still haven't put away my maternity clothes. This hasn't been a great week overall, and I'm worried I'll crack at work next week when I go back. 

Good luck with work next week. It's hard to go back, but at times it has been a good distraction from everything else. ((Hugs))

neptunebljc

With everything you've gone through, what do you thank God for the most?
Along with the others sonfar , my DH.  He is also so understand of my ups and downs. And even though he may disagree with how I've been dealing with our loss of Bean.  He just smiles and hugs me and says "OK, dear"

At this point right now, do you feel like you're growing in your faith or stuck? 
I feel a bit stuck.  My family is not rekigiois , so I almost feel like I'm trying to rebuild my faith alone. I've thought about joining a group at church but I don't know if I can.

Anything else you're struggling with or have turned a corner on recently?

Im struggling to rebuild my confidence.  Losing Bean really was a hit to my self-esteem. I'm not sure if its because I'm still dealing with guilt, or what.  But I feel like I can't do anything on my own anymore.

schulme2

I thank god most for DH and our DS. They have been my bright light in such a dark time.

I feel stuck right now. I made some good progress from where I was but I feel like I've hit a plateau.

rwkimmons

Warning: a little bit of a vent included

I'm thankful for my close friends and family.

I feel like I'm able to move forward but then when I go to bed, I start thinking about everything and feel like I'm taking 2 steps back.

I'm struggling with my SO right now. He's back talking to the girl who he was talking to when he found out we were pregnant. He has slandered my name and basically made me out to be this bad and crazy person to this girl He's been "talking" to. And that he was sorry that he cut things off with her and total complete lies. But here is the kicker, that girl has no idea that he and I have still been seeing each other. Not sure how to handle him right now. He's completely not himself when he talks to her. He is just chasing momentary pleasure and will soon come back and tell me he's sorry. I hate to let him go but right now that maybe my only option. Ugh...sorry about my little rant

irons633

****posting from ipad**** With everything you've gone through, what do you thank God for the most? My husband who is awesome and my family and friends. At this point right now, do you feel like you're growing in your faith or stuck? I feel I am growing each day and becoming stronger. Anything else you're struggling with or have turned a corner on recently? I am struggling with waiting on getting test results as well as knowing why I keep loosing babies. I am also struggling with the fact I'll be going back to work on the 18th and I no longer have the desire to work there. ( 911 operator) and after I came back from loosing my son last year the first call I took was a woman who was loosing her baby. I am not strong enough to handle those things anymore. Waiting on call backs from other jobs and I hope they come real soon!!!