Hello first off I would just like to say That I'm really sorry you ladies are going through this. I know what it feels like , I also had PPD after my son was born but never realized it and therefore never got help. But I just had a few questions and I hope I get a reply. Also I will be asking my OB next week about this too.
I'm 13 weeks pregnant and I have a 23 month old and a 7 month old. Now there are times when I can't deal with my kids and a rage just comes upon me and I can't control it so I just remove myself before I do something I'll regret . This also happens with my husband , like every time I see him I just get so angry and pissed off at for no good reason ! And that's really straining our relationship . I also have horrible mood swings and often think about myself dying and nobody caring , and that everybody would be better off without me. I just don't know if this is depression or something else. I would really appreciate any input ..... And I will be talking about these feelings with my OB .
I would definitely talk not only to your OB about it but also to a psychiatrist who has experience treating depression and other mood disorders during pregnancy. I'm not a doctor, but I suffer from depression and anxiety. I was on Zoloft throughout my first pregnancy and am continuing it for this one.
Unexplainable rage can definitely be a sign of depression. I've been there. You're not alone and people can and do live with depression both during and after pregnancy. There are meds that have been studied during pregnancy and, though no drug (not even Tylenol) is 100% safe, in many situations the benefits outweigh the risks. Yours may be one of them, but you can't know until you talk with a professional who can get you the help you need.
What you describe is exactly how I felt during my second pregnancy. I did use Zoloft while pregnant and Prozac after. It took several years for me to feel 100% without medication. I'm pregnant for the third time with no symptom so far this time. I found it helped me the most to write a list of triggers; not enough help with two very young children, dirty house, being home too much without other adults, and complication of a child with Autism. I found addressing the triggers helped greatly and benefited everyone. I got part time child care, took time to myself without children, and got a housekeeper to help keep up at home and began to feel better. The thought of taking care of three very young children is overwhelming seek the help you need and please tell your Dr. right away there is a lot of options available.
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