I had my D&C yesterday, and while I'm feeling fine physically and so relieved that the worst is over (I've known I miscarried for over a week and a half), I didn't think packing up my maternity clothes would be so hard. I got my "bloat bump" about 2 weeks ago and I love how I felt and looked in my maternity clothes. Its just the final straw emotionally. No one tells you how hard this is. I know it was a blighted ovum and so it was technically not a baby, but as a mom, I fell in love with it from the moment I knew it was coming. And this is even harder because we'd been trying to get pregnant for a year and a half. My first miscarriage was so much easier because I didn't know I'd been pregnant til after it happened. This just sucks.
I'm sorry for your loss and sorry you find yourself here. The first few weeks were the hardest for me... since then I've had good and bad days. Praying you find more good than bad days soon.
Me 35 / DH 36
TTC since 09/2009
Hashimoto's diagnosis 11/2011 / Endometriosis removal surgery 04/2013
Other diagnosis: 1 mutation - PAI-1 gene
BFP#1 9/27/2013 / EDD 6/4/14 / MC 10/17/2013
BFP#2 3/4/14 / EDD 11/13/14 / CP
BFP#3 6/7/14 / EDD 2/16/15 / CP
BFP #4 11/7/2014 / EDD 7/17/15 / CP
Current Plan: Waiting to change RE... Appt on 1/16
RXs: Metformin, Levothyroxin, Baby Aspirin, CoQ10, Vitamin D, Folic Acid, Pre-natal. Progesterone post O.
I'm very sorry for your loss! That really sucks :-( Hang in there . . . I can tell you that it does get easier with time. I still have certain triggers, but give yourself time to digest everything that has happened and to heal. *hugs*
TTC: Since July 2013 BFP #1: EDD 05/27/2014 (D&C 10/17/2014)
I'm going through the same thing now, and I found out yesterday that I had a blighted ovum and no fetal matter had developed. I was excited and getting used to my bloat bump, and looking forward to finally seeing a dot on the ultrasound which showed my baby, but instead there was nothing, and the embryonic sac remained the same in size. Now I will have to have it pass through me, or have a D&C. Was looking forward to a special and happy holiday season being pregnanct, and now everything in my world has changed.
At least now I feel like I'm not alone, knowing so many of us on here have gone through this loss together. It helps to discuss it.
And I'm so sorry for your loss
My PGAL brain didn't allow me to buy any clothes (short story-last full term preg was 10 years ago so my stuff is long gone, had m/c in may lived in sweats and yoga pants) but with the cooler weather this months, a sweet friend gave me a few things. I have them folded up on the dresser-gonna ask her if she wants them back or what. I don't think she does but I kinda don't want to see them. But I want to use them again. So I don't know.
Re: Just packed up my maternity clothes
DS born 04/25/2012
BFP #1: EDD 05/27/2014 (D&C 10/17/2014)
My PGAL brain didn't allow me to buy any clothes (short story-last full term preg was 10 years ago so my stuff is long gone, had m/c in may lived in sweats and yoga pants) but with the cooler weather this months, a sweet friend gave me a few things. I have them folded up on the dresser-gonna ask her if she wants them back or what. I don't think she does but I kinda don't want to see them. But I want to use them again. So I don't know.