The other day I was loving on my Bella, (she's 20 months old) we were giving each other kisses and hugs and then I closed my eyes and I felt so sad. I imagined this is how it would be if I were kissing Emily and if she were kissing and hugging me. I look at Bella and I try to picture Emily..... I think I'm losing it, it breaks my heart. Bella thinks there is still a baby in my belly, she kisses it and rubs it....i hate this
Re: am I crazy ** LO mentioned
I don't think you're crazy. For the first few months after losing Devon, I felt the same way. I still find myself imagining how things would be with Devon, how he and my older son would interact with one another. Devon looked so much like my older son, JJ, when he was born that it broke my heart even more...they would have been two peas in a pod. I just know it. I know how you feel; you're not crazy, and you're not alone! **HUGS**
My oldest sons name is JJ also!
I constantly will be brushing my oldest dd hair and imagine brushing Arianna's. Your not crazy.