Bedtime equals tears

jonahsma

I hate bedtime..... That's when the most tears fall.i can't fall asleep Emily runs through my mind and I can't help but fall apart into a million pieces.i feel so broken. I wish it would all go away, the bleeding, the milk, its just a slap on the face.

ajsweeton

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I think night was always the worst time for me when I lost Elliott and Ryland. I finally resorted to sleeping pills just to be able to get through it. The changes in your body are one of the hardest things to bear after a loss. I remember my first shower and just bawling through it because my body was so different without them there. I couldn't stand to look in a mirror for months afterwards. I had to resort to distractions, loud music I could sing a long to etc to get through. I remember reading a lot at night to be able to fall asleep too. It seems like as soon as the lights went out I couldn't stop thinking about them and everything I'd lost. Thinking about you tonight and praying for a little peace for you.

PiperS

It's the worst time for me to. It's the one time there's no distractions. I'm sorry your having a hard night.

kz's_girlygirl

I am so sorry   nighttime is definitely one of the hardest times.  I usually have to watch TV, read, or listen to headphones in bed in order to have something going on besides my thoughts running loose.  I hope you are able to find some comfort

OSUWifey09

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Nights were the worst for me, too. I spent my six weeks of medical leave with my mom and DS, and at least I had them to be around during the day. After everyone went to sleep, though, it was so hard. My parents wound up putting a TV in my room at their house so I had something to watch, but I barely slept those six weeks. I averaged maybe 2-3 hours a night, unless I took sleeping pills. I couldn't shut my brain off, couldn't stop thinking about what happened, couldn't stop missing my boy.

It's been more than a year since I lost Devon, and while the days have absolutely gotten better, I still have those sleepless nights when I can't stop thinking about him. I still miss him terribly. I hope that your days start to get better; I'm so sorry you have to go through this. *hugs*

jonahsma

I'm planning on going to a Christian bookstore and buying a devotional to read at night...any suggestions on a devotional?

neptunebljc

There is a good grief book by Alan Wolfelt. Its sold at my local Christian bookstore. 

I also did the sleeping pills at first. I would go a couple of days on no sleep then take one. They definitely help dealing with life easier. It's hard to process anything when you are exhausted. 

jonahsma

Thanks I think I will have to check it out

mingaling2

It is the hardest time for me, too. I am thinking of you