Angry is OK...its not fun but its OK. Write those feelings down or get them out somehow and hopefully soon they will become less intense. Sending hugs to you!
I just can't believe all these people complaining about trivial things re: their kids. I mean, I can believe because I did the same. But now it just seems like a world away - people not even realizing how lucky they are to have their children still with them. I just want to scream.
Hugs, you're not alone. It's been 7 months and I'm still pretty angry most of the time. Sometimes I sit around hoping someone will say something insensitive to me so I can rip into them. My therapist calls it "walking around with a cup of sludge", like I'm just waiting for someone to deserve me taking my anger out on them.
My Pregnancy/Parenting BLOG TTC since 5/2011, BFP #1 12/3/11, M/C 12/7/11 @ 4wks 2d. Began seeing RE Sep 2012. October 2012 Metformin 1500 mg= ovulation on CD34 BFP#2 11/14/12 9DPO, EDD 7/26/13, DX Gestational Diabetes @14 wks, our angel born sleeping 3/24/13 @ 22wks 2d. BFP #3 7/4/13 8DPO EDD 3/22/14, DX Gestational Diabetes @14 wks. started insulin @16 wks. Our rainbow, born 3/19/14 @ 39wks 6d., we're so in love!
Hugs, you're not alone. It's been 7 months and I'm still pretty angry most of the time. Sometimes I sit around hoping someone will say something insensitive to me so I can rip into them. My therapist calls it "walking around with a cup of sludge", like I'm just waiting for someone to deserve me taking my anger out on them.
I feel like that, too, just waiting for it to happen. Then I feel all this guilt for unleashing it at someone who really has no way of knowing. Feeling so conflicted
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TTC since 2008
Dh:34, no issues. Me:31, Endo, slightly hypothyroid, deformed ovary, paracentric inversion.
4 Gonal-F, Cetrotide, HcG, Crinone +TI cycles= all BFN
Lap in 2012 to remove large unresolving cyst discovered endo and double lobed ovary.
6 Gonal-F, Cetrotide, HcG, Crinone IUI cycles= All BFN,
1st IVF w/ICSI- June '13 Antagonist: Gonal-F, Menopur, Ganirelix, HcG, Estradiol, Crinone= 7 retrieved, 4 mature, 1 unfertilized, 2 abnormally fertilized, 1 normally fertilized. 2DT of only embryo and our miracle BFP.
Our beloved baby boy was born sleeping Oct. 13, 2013 due to pROM/IC/Uterine infection.
2nd IVF w/ICSI- Feb. '14 EPP/lupron/antagonist: Estrace, lupron, HGH, Gonal-F, Menopur, HcG, PIO, lovenox, doxy/dex.=21 retrieved, 16 mature, 15 fertilized!! 5dt of 1 blast/ 6 frozen. BFP! Beta 1 9dp5dt:83.9 Beta 2: 11dp5dt: 145.2 Beta 3 14dp5dt: 497 Please be our sticky rainbow baby!
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Hugs, you're not alone. It's been 7 months and I'm still pretty angry most of the time. Sometimes I sit around hoping someone will say something insensitive to me so I can rip into them. My therapist calls it "walking around with a cup of sludge", like I'm just waiting for someone to deserve me taking my anger out on them.
My Pregnancy/Parenting BLOG TTC since 5/2011, BFP #1 12/3/11, M/C 12/7/11 @ 4wks 2d. Began seeing RE Sep 2012. October 2012 Metformin 1500 mg= ovulation on CD34 BFP#2 11/14/12 9DPO, EDD 7/26/13, DX Gestational Diabetes @14 wks, our angel born sleeping 3/24/13 @ 22wks 2d. BFP #3 7/4/13 8DPO EDD 3/22/14, DX Gestational Diabetes @14 wks. started insulin @16 wks. Our rainbow, born 3/19/14 @ 39wks 6d., we're so in love!