I made this account some time ago and haven't been on it in a year, maybe more.
When I did make it, I was pregnant with my eldest daughter. During that time I admitted to being a married young mother.
I was surprised by how much grief I got from it, and how much people were determined to force me to accept that my husband and I would divorce.
Well, we are approaching 5 years soon enough. Since recent events in my life, I was left to think about all the nay sayers that I dealt with, and that came to mind.
You see, I doubt those ladies even come on here anymore, but in case they might be lurking, this is for them. On suggestion from my grief counselor, my rant:
My husband and I? We aren't your failures. We have struggled through far more pain than most of you could even fathom.
6 months of training, two years of deployments, 2 months of JRTC, 2 missed Christmases, 3 missed anniversaries, 8 missed birthdays (combinations of his,mine, and our children's), uprooting twice, one miscarriage, and...the loss of our youngest daughter to SIDS.
And here we stand together, still in love through all that pain and absence. Despite your hateful words and the judging eyes of the world, we are striving, working everyday to be better people,better parents, a better couple.
And so, you can call me names,you can tell me how much I am wrong and that it is only matter of time, but as for me? Well, if I didn't have faith, I wouldn't be able to even type this right now.
Since I lost my baby girl, I have realized that the only person who can hurt me now is my husband, and I also know he is the one person who would never try. So, tear me down, try your best.
But my family? We will still be here in the morning. My son, my eldest daughter, my husband, and me. We have an angel on our side.
And there you have it.
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