I just need somewhere to decompress for a bit. DH found a tiny kitten abandoned in an old camper that his fire dept was going to burn. It was about two weeks old and we took it home and began bottle feeding it. DH was in love with the little guy, to the point where you would have thought this was his first born. We took turns getting up multiple times a night to feed him, and family came over to see him. People called him our practice baby, but we still viewed him as a cute little kitten.
But we noticed over the past week or so that he wasn't developing. His eyes were rarely opened and when they were they were little slivers with no sparkle to them. He had a few little episodes where he was weak and disinterested in food. We made a vet appointment for today but sadly he passed this morning. We still spoke with the vet about it and she told us it was probably fading kitten syndrome (like SIDS for cats). Poor DH was beyond crushed. He blamed himself for a while and sobbed, but now we have accepted that there was nothing we could do about it.
To make matters worse I finally got AF yesterday, on CD78. It's insanely heavy so not only do I emotionally feel like hell, but physically too. Sigh..... Thanks for letting me whine. I just needed somewhere to blab.
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Married 11/21/2018
Me: 33 / DH: 33
TTC #1 since 2012, finally successful in 2016
BFP 11/29/2013 - EDD 8/9/2014 - MMC 12/31/2013 8 weeks 2 days - Tried to MC naturally for 4 weeks, D&C 2/2/2014
IUI 01/25/2016 - BFP 2/5/2016 - Natural Home Delivery to our DD 10/8/2016
IUD removed 10/3/2018
Ready to TTC for #2
I am so sorry. Like PP said, you gave him love and a comfortable life, even if it was short. T&P for you and your DH.
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DH (32): SA is ok, slightly low morph, normal SCSA Me (32): Slightly low progesterone, hostile CM, carrier for CF, Moderately high NKC, High TNFa, heterozyogous mutated Factor XIII, and +APA
October 2012-May 2014: 4 failed IUIs, 3 failed IVFs, and 1 failed FETw/donor embryos
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