Faith Friday

schulme2

It's another Friday and another chance for us to share our struggles and triumphs with our faith.

Some of us mentioned last week but let's hear from everyone... Is there a praise/worship/faith-based song that has really helped you?

Do you believe this is God's plan or that this is just something that happened that God will help you through?

Anything else you are struggling with?

schulme2

I have a few songs that really speak to me... "Praise You In This Storm- Casting Crowns
Hurt and the Healer-MercyMe
Worn- Tenth Avenue North

I'm having a really hard time with this one (really, that's why I'm asking). I always believed that everything in this world happens because God said so. I'm questioning that now though because how could he take my daughter and hurt me so badly? If He doesn't want to see us hurt then don't hurt us! I don't know?! I can't figure this one out!

Jansheski

***LO Ticker*** 

The song that I have been listening too is "blessed be your name" by Matt Redman this song has really helped me.

I believe that these type of things happen not because God wants us to hurt.  I think he is right there hurting with us.  He understands the pain we feel because like us he lost his only son who died a horribly death to save us all.  I don't think God is the cause of bad things happening in this world. I believe we live in a sinful world that is full of evil and suffering all around us.  Since God is all powerful everything has to go through him so in a sense he could have prevented this from happening.  This is a tough one for many because how can such a loving God not prevent the death of baby?  But we as humans are unable to see his perfect wisdom.  God will make good out of everything bad that has happened.  We may not always see it, but I believe with my heart good will come from this.  I have already seen some of the good that has come from Wyatt's death.  So many people have told me that my faith has brought them to and closer with God and I am an inspiration to them.  I know I don't know what God has in store for me.  And at times I still question why.  But we are all children of God.  Which reminds me of a scenario, as when a child asks to stay up later then bedtime but the parent tells them no you need to go to bed.  The child asks why? Well because.  Sometimes I think even if God did explain to us why we would not be able to understand his answer.  But I believe with my whole heart God is everything that is Good and he is right there crying with us.  He will make everything right one day and there will be no more suffering.  I still struggle with why but the more faith I have the easier this becomes.

BrittianyM

Some of us mentioned last week but let's hear from everyone... Is there a praise/worship/faith-based song that has really helped you? After Brooke grew her wings, I started listening to Josh Wilson. He has so many great songs and they really hit home to me.

Do you believe this is God's plan or that this is just something that happened that God will help you through? I believe it is God's plan. It says in the bible that our days are numbered before we are even born. I don't understand why her life was so short. I am not sure I will ever understand his plan.  I keep telling people that when I get to Heaven that will be when I know why but there is no reason good enough to me for me not to have my daughter with me in this world.

Anything else you are struggling with? Tomorrow will be 6 months since Brooke became in angel in Heaven. Can not believe it. 6 months of memories that were mean't to be but aren't.

diamante1181

Is there a praise/worship/faith-based song that has really helped you? Some may not agree that this is a faith based song, but "One Last Breath" by Creed is therapeutic to me. 

Do you believe this is God's plan or that this is just something that happened that God will help you through? I don't know if this is God's plan. I can only assume He was saving them from some kind of suffering they didn't deserve. So many plans change at the last minute, and He is excellent at keeping secrets. 

Anything else you are struggling with? I am struggling with bitterness, and I jump back and forth from the line of faith. I have it to a certain degree, and have been violently shaken to another. My really good friend is pregnant, we were only a few days apart from each other, no more than a week. Now she gets to enjoy her pregnancy (her third child, btw) and here I am, with two beautiful urns for my first-borns. My heart aches constantly, I haven't even seen my friend since I was in the hospital and don't think I want to. We usually go to her house for New Year's Eve, and I believe I will be staying my butt at home and sleeping through midnight. I want the new year to begin, and maybe then I'll have some hope for the year.

AJCagle82

Is there a praise/worship/faith-based song that has really helped you?

I was listening to Jeremy Camp "Let it Fade" and it resonated with me. I haven't been listening to much music like that lately. It is still hard for me sometimes.

Do you believe this is God's plan or that this is just something that happened that God will help you through?

I don't believe this is God's plan. I believe His plan was for me to live in a perfect existence, but sin has separated me from that. I believe He allows for things to happen because there is sin in the world. Because of that, there will be pain and heartache. I do believe He will use this for His purpose, but I have no idea what that purpose is, and I'm struggling with why that purpose couldn't be served with Parker here. I know this is not what God wanted for me and it hurts HIm as well, but at least He gets to hand out with Parker (and vice versa).

Anything else you are struggling with?

Sooooo many struggles, but there is one main one. I am generally struggling with what God wants from me in my life. I want to be where He wants me to be, but I don't know how to do that if I have no clue what He wants. I was hoping for the season of uncertainty to end once I finished school. We seem to have only compounded the issue. We have now lost our precious daughter and I have no signs of getting a job. I'm putting myself out there and getting no responses (at least not hopeful ones). I'm at a loss for what He wants. It makes me want to throw my hands in the air and say "I give up." What else am I supposed to do?

Jansheski

I just want to say how much I love faith fridays! thank you ladies this made my day

stefuge

Some of us mentioned last week but let's hear from everyone... Is there a praise/worship/faith-based song that has really helped you?

Need you now by Plumb, walk by faith by Jeremy Camp, blessed be your name by Matt Redman

Do you believe this is God's plan or that this is just something that happened that God will help you through?

I believe that ultimately God is in control, He knew this would happen, and He could have stopped it but didn't. He has a plan that I can't begin to understand and He will work this to good. The bible says He formed Colton in my womb and that the days of his life were numbered before he was ever conceived. I will probably never understand why this had to happen but I trust Him that He is in control and His plan is perfect. He knows how we feel, He too watched his son die, and He mourns with us. He has given such great comfort through my entire pregnancy, whispering to me that this child would forever change my life, and that He held Colton in His hands, and as we have walked this path of loss He has given me comfort and peace. Not that it will be easy and happy but that there is still a reason and joy in this life. I know that He holds my baby close and that Colton will never feel pain or fear or suffering, and that I don't have to worry about him the way moms always worry about their children. I will see my little boy again someday and that will be a happy reunion.

Anything else you are struggling with?

Fear and worry for the future. As PP said, if this could happen, if we could lose our baby, than it feels like anything could happen. I know God would carry us through it, but He also promises that in this world we will face trouble, and I feel too beat up for that right now.

irons633

*****posting from IPad ********* Some of us mentioned last week but let's hear from everyone... Is there a praise/worship/faith-based song that has really helped you? I would say "Take Me To The King" by Tamela Mann and "Never Would've Made It" by Marvin Sapp. Both of these song were already very strong songs for me, but since we have said goodbye to our Olivia both have truly touched my heart and have allowed me to really get my emotions out. Do you believe this is God's plan or that this is just something that happened that God will help you through? I believe that God has a oak for all of us and sometimes it may not be a plan we would've thought of for ourself. When I lost my son I figured God was keeping him from suffering since he did test positive for spina bifida and had slow development so I believed God rather take Him to be one of His angels to save us and him the heartache. With my baby girl I am struggling to figure out why He took her when she was perfect and I am the one with the problem. My mother told me that my daughter possibly could've saved my life and that with loosing her the doctors now know that I have an issue that if maybe if she hadn't sacrificed her life for me it could've been detrimental to me. I do know God is in control of my life and He is using me for a greater purpose and I do know that my loss and the losses of all of us are our testimonies to help other women as well as each other. I do know He is helping me thru each day and every time I see the sun shining or butterflies or other things He created I know my babies are watching over us. Anything else you are struggling with? I am struggling to find my ultimate purpose and how I am going to achieve it. I m faithful but I do wonder if I will bring home a healthy baby. I do hope that all of this pain and heartache will not be in vain. I love these Faithful Fridays!!! Thank you all!!!

stefuge

irons633 said:

With my baby girl I am struggling to figure out why He took her when she was perfect and I am the one with the problem. My mother told me that my daughter possibly could've saved my life and that with loosing her the doctors now know that I have an issue that if maybe if she hadn't sacrificed her life for me it could've been detrimental to me.

I have had these same thoughts - if I do have a genetic disorder we would not have known if not for losing Colton. That certainly doesn't make it okay that we lost him, but there may be some purpose. This genetic disorder would not only affect me but possibly my siblings, their future pregnancies and children, my parents, my DS1, and any future children. Colton's loss may affect the health of a lot of other people, and that is substantial.

irons633

@stefuge I feel the same and even as we grieve our babies they may help in finding any issues like you said that could help with future pregnancies. I do know that MTHFR is a common genetic disorder that plagues women and it may not be caught for awhile. I have been doing research on those and also heard women that have the disorder have gone on to have successful pregnancies. I wish you much success in TTC.

stefuge

Thanks @irons633, you too!

jonahsma

Hi.. First I want to express my condolences to you and your loved ones. With my first loss (8 wks 5 days) I was so angry at God,i constantly questioned his love for me I became so depressed and distant from my loved ones,i was simply miserable. I didn't attend church, didn't read my Bible I was simply shut out. On Nov 6 at 23 Weeks my life was once again changed...no heartbeat, this time I wasnt angry I was very heartbroken but I thanked God for my baby,i knew what I needed to do I had to give it all to God.i didn't question him instead I praised him I thanked him for everything that he has given me and for everything he has taken away. I feel that if I don't read my Bible or pray or worship him then I will fall back into that depression.don't get me wrong I will forever grieve for my baby but will praise God in this storm. Don't lose faith God loves you and will never leave you. That night I picked up My Bible and read some words that brought me great comfort. As hard as a trial as this is you will come through stand firm... Listen to awesome by Charles Jenkins. Break every chain by Tasha cobbs