Missing my baby

irons633

I am missing my daughter so much!! It's been just over two weeks and I am still trying to fight with this guilt that it wasn't my fault but that is so much easier said than done. I will be speaking with a therapist to help me understand that I can not blame myself but that is difficult to do when you child is perfect and you know that it's your body that failed your child. I so want to try right now for another baby but I do know that, one isn't possible at this time but two I know that I need to give my body at least 6 months before we even try again. I just long to be pregnant again and have baby to hold in my arms and to love!!! Ughhhhhh!!!!!! I just want to scream at all of these emotions I have going on. I just miss my baby girl so much and it just hurts me so that we only had 3 months to go and my damn body couldn't do that!!!!

VyD81

Big hugs. Scream whenever you need to. I'm sure someone on this board will always be here for you. Some days I wish I can fast forward time to when it gets a little easier, but then I would feel guilty for thinking that way. I definitely did not know the dept of grief until I lost my baby and wish we all did not have to go through this.

diamante1181

I'm so sorry. I definitely get this. I feel the same way most of the time. *Hugs*

jess123456

Big hugs to you.

shandorfml2

I am so sorry sweetheart. We've all been there...sending lots of love

irons633

Thank you ladies for your continued support.

stefuge

***LO ticker*** I am so so sorry. ((Hugs))

weddedwife

I understand these feelings. My son was perfectly healthy and my body failed him. I still struggle with it.

irons633

@weddedwife I know that I have to come to terms with it because when I get pregnant again I don't want to have that guilty feeling and not enjoy my pregnancy. I am truly hoping therapy helps me with this.

kz's_girlygirl

I hope seeing a therapist will help you process those feelings of guilt.  It is so hard