Today at 7:54pm will mark a week since we said goodbye to our sweet baby girl Olivia. I can not believe that time has gone by already, it seems just like yesterday that I could feel her inside me then the next she was gone. I was so excited to have my baby shower in a few weeks as well as getting prepared for her arrival January 12th. My baby girl knows that I have cried and screamed for her in these last few days, but I can say today for the first time I smiled when I thought of her and her brother. I do not know if it was because the sun was shining outside and it made me think that the warm feeling I get when the sun touches my face is that of my babies rubbing their hands against me and saying mommy we are okay. Its okay for you to start your healing process and know that we love you so much and that we will always be here for you. I just hate that my babies had to sacrifice their lives so that answers can be made as to why I had to loose them. I do know that I will see them again one day and I will also have a healthy baby to hold in my arms and tell about about their angel sister and brother.
I miss my Olivia and EJ so much but I do know that with time my tears will subside and that when I think of them it can be with nothing but joy to have experienced them both even if it was only for moments. I will always carry my babies in my heart and in my spirit.
I do hope all of you ladies, that as we go every day into the healing process that we remember to hug ourselves and know that we are loved by some of the greatest angles ever!!!!
Hugs everyone and thank you for being here for me I am truly grateful....