Late Term and Child Loss
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Never thought I would be here again.....***long post****
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Hello Ladies!! This is one place no one wants to say they have been before. I lost my first baby, a boy we named EJ November 21, 2012. It was the hardest thing I thought I would ever have to endure. He was born at 20 weeks but he was only measuring 17 weeks and with testing he came back positive for spina bifida. I spotted most of my pregnancy with him. After loosing him we waited a few cycles before trying again this past February. We were lucky to get pregnant in April of this year and we were so excited. My pregnancy with my daughter Olivia was awesome!! I didn't not have any bleeding and all of her test came back great, as she was growing properly measuring about two weeks ahead. We just knew that she was going to be our rainbow baby and we were so excited. My baby shower was going to be November 9th which would've helped us get thru the one year anniversary of loosing our first baby.
I guess God had other plans for us because on October 17th everything changed. Olivia was always very active and I could time her movements like clock work. However, that day I did not feel her move at all like I normally did. So I used my fetal Doppler which I received as a gift for my birthday because as we all know after loosing a child hearing that heartbeat in between appointments is a beautiful thing. When I put the Doppler on me, I did not hear a thing. Normally when I would use it I would hear the blood moving and as soon as I would put it on my belly she would kick at it and move away, she was not a fan . 
I laid there and cried and prayed that I was not about to have to give birth to my daughter at 27 weeks due her leaving us. I contacted my doctor and he told me to go to L&D and have them out me on the fetal monitor. When the nurse did she heard the same thing I heard at home, SILENCE!! She then went to get the ultrasound machine and as soon as my sweet baby came on the screen I knew she was gone.
October 18th at 7:54pm I gave birth to a 2 1/2 lbs 13.2 inches baby girl with a head full of hair. I cried but smiled at the same time because she looked so peaceful and beautiful. We were able to take pictures with her as the hospital also dressed her in a beautiful knit dress and took pictures for us as well as giving us a memorial box. I never thought in a million years that I would suffer two losses in less than a year, especially when I only had less than 90 days left if this pregnancy. The doctors believed that I suffered a placental abruption as well as their was a small clot in the cord. They think i have a blood clotting disorder which they won't know for sure until my blood loss panel which will be done in 6 weeks. I can say that this time is a lot harder due to 3 days after having her my milk started to come in as well as I was diagnosed with postpartum preeclampsia. It's like I'm trying to heal mentally but it's hard to do with all the physical reminders. We will try again for the doctors will put me on a regimen and I will be monitored by my regular OB and high risk one.
I hope that all of you get past these dark days and soon see the sun again. It hurts so much that our babies had to depart us but we all know that we forever have angles watching over us. I hope that we all get our answers and get our blessings of beautiful happy babies soon.
Hugs to you all!!!!!
I laid there and cried and prayed that I was not about to have to give birth to my daughter at 27 weeks due her leaving us. I contacted my doctor and he told me to go to L&D and have them out me on the fetal monitor. When the nurse did she heard the same thing I heard at home, SILENCE!! She then went to get the ultrasound machine and as soon as my sweet baby came on the screen I knew she was gone.
October 18th at 7:54pm I gave birth to a 2 1/2 lbs 13.2 inches baby girl with a head full of hair. I cried but smiled at the same time because she looked so peaceful and beautiful. We were able to take pictures with her as the hospital also dressed her in a beautiful knit dress and took pictures for us as well as giving us a memorial box. I never thought in a million years that I would suffer two losses in less than a year, especially when I only had less than 90 days left if this pregnancy. The doctors believed that I suffered a placental abruption as well as their was a small clot in the cord. They think i have a blood clotting disorder which they won't know for sure until my blood loss panel which will be done in 6 weeks. I can say that this time is a lot harder due to 3 days after having her my milk started to come in as well as I was diagnosed with postpartum preeclampsia. It's like I'm trying to heal mentally but it's hard to do with all the physical reminders. We will try again for the doctors will put me on a regimen and I will be monitored by my regular OB and high risk one.
I hope that all of you get past these dark days and soon see the sun again. It hurts so much that our babies had to depart us but we all know that we forever have angles watching over us. I hope that we all get our answers and get our blessings of beautiful happy babies soon.
Hugs to you all!!!!! This discussion has been closed.
Re: Never thought I would be here again.....***long post****
IVF#1 - BFP 6/18/13 - Tommy born sleeping 10/1/13
IVF#2 - BFN
IVF#3 - BFP 6/5/14 EDD 2/14/15 TWIN BOYS - MATTHEW AND TIMOTHY ARRIVE 12/2/14
***SIGGY WARNING****
So, so sorry to hear this. Wrapping you in hugs and wishing you peace and love.
In memory of Corbin Scott 10/28/11-12/3/11. Heaven got another angel the night you left this world behind Heaven got a little better the day it took you away from me Missing you tonight, see you again sometime For now I'll close my eyes and dream of heaven tonight I'll love you forever I'll like you for always Now and Forever My baby you'll be
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BFP #1 12.24.07 - DD born @ 39w1d on 08.26.08
BFP #2 08.04.11 - DD born still @ 37w3d on 03.25.12
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TTC #3 since May 2012
BFP #3 12.29.12 - CP @ 4w2d on 01.02.13
BFP #4 10.17.13 - CP @ 4w2d on 10.23.13
BFP #5 04.06.14 - MMC 05.07.14
No longer trying to conceive.
TTC since 2008
Dh:34, no issues. Me:31, Endo, slightly hypothyroid, deformed ovary, paracentric inversion.
4 Gonal-F, Cetrotide, HcG, Crinone +TI cycles= all BFN
Lap in 2012 to remove large unresolving cyst discovered endo and double lobed ovary.
6 Gonal-F, Cetrotide, HcG, Crinone IUI cycles= All BFN,
1st IVF w/ICSI- June '13 Antagonist: Gonal-F, Menopur, Ganirelix, HcG, Estradiol, Crinone= 7 retrieved, 4 mature, 1 unfertilized, 2 abnormally fertilized, 1 normally fertilized. 2DT of only embryo and our miracle BFP.
Our beloved baby boy was born sleeping Oct. 13, 2013 due to pROM/IC/Uterine infection.
2nd IVF w/ICSI- Feb. '14 EPP/lupron/antagonist: Estrace, lupron, HGH, Gonal-F, Menopur, HcG, PIO, lovenox, doxy/dex.=21 retrieved, 16 mature, 15 fertilized!! 5dt of 1 blast/ 6 frozen. BFP! Beta 1 9dp5dt:83.9 Beta 2: 11dp5dt: 145.2 Beta 3 14dp5dt: 497 Please be our sticky rainbow baby!
I am so sorry for your losses. My heartbreaks that you find yourself back here for your sweet Olivia.
I am so, so sorry for your losses. Olivia is absolutely beautiful; thank you for sharing her picture with us. Sending hugs, prayers, and wishes for peace and healing as you move forward.
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BFP# 1 7/7/12 Beautiful DD born still at 36 weeks 5 days on 3/2/13
Diagnosed with PCOS in 2005. Started Metformin July 2013
Please be our rainbow!!
**All AL Welcome**
She is so beautiful
BFP #2 - EDD 2/26/12 M/C 6/28/11 @ 5w2d
BFP #3 - EDD 4/7/12 M/C 8/2/11 @ 4w2d
Too beautiful for this earth
BFP #4 - EDD 12/09/12, Lucille arrived 11/26/12
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I'm so very sorry for the loss of your sweet girl, as well as the loss of your son. My heart breaks for you, it's so unfair. Nobody should have to go through this pain once, let alone twice. You and your family are in my prayers, big huge hugs to you.
My Pregnancy/Parenting BLOG TTC since 5/2011, BFP #1 12/3/11, M/C 12/7/11 @ 4wks 2d. Began seeing RE Sep 2012. October 2012 Metformin 1500 mg= ovulation on CD34 BFP#2 11/14/12 9DPO, EDD 7/26/13, DX Gestational Diabetes @14 wks, our angel born sleeping 3/24/13 @ 22wks 2d. BFP #3 7/4/13 8DPO EDD 3/22/14, DX Gestational Diabetes @14 wks. started insulin @16 wks. Our rainbow, born 3/19/14 @ 39wks 6d., we're so in love!
I am so so sorry that you have to go through this all over again. Huge huge tou you!!!
Heather
Brooke Elizabeth born Feb 17, 2013 grew wings May 9, 2013 @ 11 weeks & 4 days old from SIDS
I am so very sorry for the losses of EJ and Olivia...I wish there were words to say...
Just know I'll be praying for you and your family.