Late Term and Child Loss

Never thought I would be here again.....***long post****

Hello Ladies!! This is one place no one wants to say they have been before. I lost my first baby, a boy we named EJ November 21, 2012. It was the hardest thing I thought I would ever have to endure. He was born at 20 weeks but he was only measuring 17 weeks and with testing he came back positive for spina bifida. I spotted most of my pregnancy with him. After loosing him we waited a few cycles before trying again this past February. We were lucky to get pregnant in April of this year and we were so excited. My pregnancy with my daughter Olivia was awesome!! I didn't not have any bleeding and all of her test came back great, as she was growing properly measuring about two weeks ahead. We just knew that she was going to be our rainbow baby and we were so excited. My baby shower was going to be November 9th which would've helped us get thru the one year anniversary of loosing our first baby. I guess God had other plans for us because on October 17th everything changed. Olivia was always very active and I could time her movements like clock work. However, that day I did not feel her move at all like I normally did. So I used my fetal Doppler which I received as a gift for my birthday because as we all know after loosing a child hearing that heartbeat in between appointments is a beautiful thing. When I put the Doppler on me, I did not hear a thing. Normally when I would use it I would hear the blood moving and as soon as I would put it on my belly she would kick at it and move away, she was not a fan . :) I laid there and cried and prayed that I was not about to have to give birth to my daughter at 27 weeks due her leaving us. I contacted my doctor and he told me to go to L&D and have them out me on the fetal monitor. When the nurse did she heard the same thing I heard at home, SILENCE!! She then went to get the ultrasound machine and as soon as my sweet baby came on the screen I knew she was gone. October 18th at 7:54pm I gave birth to a 2 1/2 lbs 13.2 inches baby girl with a head full of hair. I cried but smiled at the same time because she looked so peaceful and beautiful. We were able to take pictures with her as the hospital also dressed her in a beautiful knit dress and took pictures for us as well as giving us a memorial box. I never thought in a million years that I would suffer two losses in less than a year, especially when I only had less than 90 days left if this pregnancy. The doctors believed that I suffered a placental abruption as well as their was a small clot in the cord. They think i have a blood clotting disorder which they won't know for sure until my blood loss panel which will be done in 6 weeks. I can say that this time is a lot harder due to 3 days after having her my milk started to come in as well as I was diagnosed with postpartum preeclampsia. It's like I'm trying to heal mentally but it's hard to do with all the physical reminders. We will try again for the doctors will put me on a regimen and I will be monitored by my regular OB and high risk one. I hope that all of you get past these dark days and soon see the sun again. It hurts so much that our babies had to depart us but we all know that we forever have angles watching over us. I hope that we all get our answers and get our blessings of beautiful happy babies soon. Hugs to you all!!!!!

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  • ***LO ticker*** I am so so sorry for both of your losses. T & P for you in these coming weeks.
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  • Oh my goodness, I am so sorry you are having to go through this again. Huge hugs to you! 
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  • Thank you ladies!!! I am praying for brighter days ahead.

  • Thank you AJCagle82!! It is difficult but I know I can make it. I can say these boards helped me the first time and I know they will again.

  • Olivia is beautiful. I'm so sorry for your losses.
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    So, so sorry to hear this.  Wrapping you in hugs and wishing you peace and love.


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  • ***Siggy warning***

    I am so very sorry to welcome you back because of the loss of your daughter. It breaks my heart to hear of one loss, and I can only imagine the pain and devastation of a second one as well. I am so very sorry for both losses. 

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  • I am so sorry for both the loss of your son, EJ and your daughter, Olivia. Wishing you peace and love.


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    I'm so sorry to hear about your EJ and now beautiful Olivia. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

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  • I am so so sorry for the loss of your sweet babies. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
  • I am so sorry for your loss of EJ and Olivia.  Her photo is beautiful!  It is so unfair that anyone has to be here, let alone return.  I am sending prayers and healing thoughts your way in the hopes that you find some comfort in the weeks and months ahead. 
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    Our beloved baby boy was born sleeping Oct. 13, 2013 due to pROM/IC/Uterine infection.
    2nd IVF w/ICSI- Feb. '14 EPP/lupron/antagonist: Estrace, lupron, HGH, Gonal-F, Menopur, HcG, PIO, lovenox, doxy/dex.=21 retrieved, 16 mature, 15 fertilized!!  5dt of 1 blast/ 6 frozen. BFP!  Beta 1 9dp5dt:83.9  Beta 2: 11dp5dt: 145.2  Beta 3  14dp5dt: 497  Please be our sticky rainbow baby!

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    I am so sorry for your losses. My heartbreaks that you find yourself back here for your sweet Olivia.
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  • I am so sorry for the loss of EJ's little sister Olivia. Thank you for sharing her photo!

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    I am so, so sorry for your losses. Olivia is absolutely beautiful; thank you for sharing her picture with us. Sending hugs, prayers, and wishes for peace and healing as you move forward.


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  • I am so so sorry, I cannot imagine losing two. Sending you tons of love and hugs...

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  • I'm so sorry for your loss! Thoughts and prayers !!!
    She is so beautiful
  • Thank you ladies so much!! Yes we were happy that we got to spend a few moments with our beautiful baby girl and get pictures to have as memories. It's hard for me now to look at her pictures without crying uncontrollably but I do know the days will come where I can look at her pictures and smile and be grateful for the experience she did give me. Thank you ladies for the sweet comments about our baby girl. My heart does hurt but I know that as each day goes by the pain will subside. Hugs to you all!!!

  • I'm sorry for your losses. Hugs to you.
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  • Your story breaks my heart. I'm so very sorry for the losses of EJ and Olivia.
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  • Thank you @Carolee! It does hurt to have two angels but I will forever have guardian angles.

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    I'm so very sorry for the loss of your sweet girl, as well as the loss of your son.  My heart breaks for you, it's so unfair. Nobody should have to go through this pain once, let alone twice.  You and your family are in my prayers, big huge hugs to you.

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  • I am so so sorry that you have to go through this all over again. Huge huge tou you!!!


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  • Thank you @anglesnight and @Heatherhah it is hard but I know that each day will get easier. Sorry for your losses as well. As stated no one should ever have to experience this.

  • So very sorry for loss of your sweet baby boy and your sweet baby girl. You should not have to endure even one loss. Your daughter looks beautiful! We are all here for you anytime you need us. Hugs to you.

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  • Thank you so much @BrittanyM I can say that without you ladies last year I would have not made it thru that loss, and I can say that with all of the support you guys have been giving me since I lost my daughter I am so grateful. Thank you so much!!!!!

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    I am so very sorry for the losses of EJ and Olivia...I wish there were words to say...

    Just know I'll be praying for you and your family.
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  • Thank you @Dixon813! Today is a better day than today and I know tomorrow will be better than yesterday!

  • I cannot imagine the pain you're feeling. I'll be thinking of you!
  • I am so sorry, hugs your way

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