The song "Heaven Got Another Angel" by Gordon Garner is our song for Corbin. A friend of ours sent us a link to it and it's absolutely perfect. I bawl every time I hear it but it's so perfect. I recite part of it every night before I go to bed.
"missing you tonight. See you again, sometime. For now I'll close my eyes and dream of heaven tonight."
In memory of Corbin Scott 10/28/11-12/3/11.
Heaven got another angel the night you left this world behind
Heaven got a little better the day it took you away from me
Missing you tonight, see you again sometime
For now I'll close my eyes and dream of heaven tonight
I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
Now and Forever
My baby you'll be
21: words. This is a quote from the book "The Worst Loss". To be honest, I never read the entire book... just skimmed it for something that would stick. This always did. When a parent dies, you are orphaned. When a spouse dies, you are widdowed. When a child dies, you are nothing. There's no word for it. I always thought this statement was just so sad. It's part of the reason I participate in awareness events like this one.
One of my friends suggested I read on in the Anne of Green Gables books. I had only ever read the first three, but she said Anne's House of Dreams had stood out to her regarding baby loss. L. M. Montgomery wrote about Anne looking forward to and then losing their first baby. Quite honestly, out of all the books I read that were loss related, this one struck me most...and it was fiction!
This quote out of the book stood out to me: "Anne, her pale face blanched with its baptism of pain, her eyes aglow with the holy passion of motherhood, did not need to be told to think of her baby. She thought of nothing else. “Oh, I know now that Captain Jim was right when he said God would manage better than that my baby would seem a stranger to me when I found her Beyond. I've followed her development day by day and week by week--I always shall. I shall know just how she grows from year to year--and when I meet her again I'll know her--she won't be a stranger.” – L.M. Montgomery Anne’s House of Dreams
"Elsie Irene was born sleeping at 35w 6d on December 8, 2012. Mommy and Daddy miss you sweet girl."
At Alice's funeral the Rabbi said "some souls need a long time to reach perfection and others only need a moment. Alice was a soul who only needed a moment here to reach her perfection." They were the most comforting words. She only needed a moment here and while it was not enough time for me, it was the amount of time she needed. Her soul is perfect now.
This picture is from The Littlest Gift. I'm not home so I wasn't able to get a picture of my actual blanket I received from them.
Married 11/23/11, TTC starting 10/12, BFP#1 11/30/12, Adoption of stepson finalized 03/19/13,Loss of our daughter at 20w4d due to incompetent cervix 03/27/13, BFP#2 06/28/13, DS2 born 3/1/14.
Day 21. Words: This is the poem I found and put it on Brooke's online memorial page. The moment I read it, it spoke to me.
"In a flash, I'm there I remember your soft skin, Your sweet scent, The smell of your hair, What would I do for a few moments To be with you, To see you again To whisper in your ear "I love you" To touch your hand to my cheek To hold you and cradle you in my loving arms I would go to the ends of the earth Search the entire universe Just to see the sparkle in your eyes To share a smile on your face To feel your sweet embrace You were all ours, God's gift to us Every moment was true, I always felt you, My dearest love My miracle set free Looking to the stars and the moon Wishing we were together, I shed a tear before I cry How can I ever say goodbye? We weren't prepared for you to die."
You're right. It was. I apologize. I was up with dd at 3am and couldn't get back to sleep so I posted then. I must have been in a haze. I'll post today's tomorrow
#captureyourgrief Day 22: Words. These words continue to stick in my head. No matter what I do, "I carry your heart with me(I carry it in my heart)" are the truest words that I could ever say to Mary. Though she isn't here with me physically, my heart is full of love for her. "You are whatever a moon has always meant and whatever a sun will always sing is you".
Re: capture your grief day 21
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The song "Heaven Got Another Angel" by Gordon Garner is our song for Corbin. A friend of ours sent us a link to it and it's absolutely perfect. I bawl every time I hear it but it's so perfect. I recite part of it every night before I go to bed.
"missing you tonight. See you again, sometime. For now I'll close my eyes and dream of heaven tonight."
In memory of Corbin Scott 10/28/11-12/3/11. Heaven got another angel the night you left this world behind Heaven got a little better the day it took you away from me Missing you tonight, see you again sometime For now I'll close my eyes and dream of heaven tonight I'll love you forever I'll like you for always Now and Forever My baby you'll be
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At Alice's funeral the Rabbi said "some souls need a long time to reach perfection and others only need a moment. Alice was a soul who only needed a moment here to reach her perfection." They were the most comforting words. She only needed a moment here and while it was not enough time for me, it was the amount of time she needed. Her soul is perfect now.
This picture is from The Littlest Gift. I'm not home so I wasn't able to get a picture of my actual blanket I received from them.
Day 21. Words: This is the poem I found and put it on Brooke's online memorial page. The moment I read it, it spoke to me.
"In a flash, I'm there
I remember your soft skin,
Your sweet scent,
The smell of your hair,
What would I do for a few moments
To be with you,
To see you again
To whisper in your ear "I love you"
To touch your hand to my cheek
To hold you and cradle you in my loving arms
I would go to the ends of the earth
Search the entire universe
Just to see the sparkle in your eyes
To share a smile on your face
To feel your sweet embrace
You were all ours,
God's gift to us
Every moment was true,
I always felt you,
My dearest love
My miracle set free
Looking to the stars and the moon
Wishing we were together,
I shed a tear before I cry
How can I ever say goodbye?
We weren't prepared for you to die."
Brooke Elizabeth born Feb 17, 2013 grew wings May 9, 2013 @ 11 weeks & 4 days old from SIDS
Never Lose Hope! Plain and simple!