First, I want to thank everyone on this board. I've been reading your posts for a few weeks now and they are comforting to me.
I recently lost my baby boy Raynor at 29 weeks. My husband and I were extremely excited when we found out we're pregnant on the 2nd IUI. Worry crept in when we went in for a anatomy ultrasound at 18 weeks and found out that he was measuring small. We had the amniocentesis done and everything came back normal. At 25 weeks, I went back to get an updated ultrasound and was told he is now measuring a few weeks behind. We met with a team of maternal fetal medicine doctors for them to tell us that our boy has 50/50 chance of surviving and he needs to be at least 500 grams by week 30 for them to offer any help, he was only 250grams at that time. How can this be, we have no history of pregnancy complication on both side of the family and the doctors have no explanation as to why. I had to go in for check up every week, and on week 28, I was told that my baby most likely will not make it pass a week. He was too small for them to help and sent me home. I did not feel him kicking as much, but was trying to stay optomistic,
eating and drinking more than usual in hope to get him to double his
size. I went back to my doctor the following day and his heart was still beating. 4 days later, I went back to my doctor for another appointment and they could not find a heart beat. We went to the hospital that night to be induced and he was born still the next morning. We held him in our arms and kept him with us until I was discharged later that day. He was so small and I could not protect him like a mother should. I still touch my belly hoping that I would wake up from this nightmare and feel my baby kicking again. My husband and I never thought we would be making funeral arrangement for Raynor instead of shopping for crib and car seat.