Sorry I have been MIA lately. I have been lurking, but I just haven't felt like posting. I'm just so sad. I hate to welcome all of the new members, but I hope you've found this place to be as helpful as I have.
As I just posted in today's Day of Grief thread, today is 6 months since Ava died. I can't believe it. I don't even remember who I was 6 months and 1 day ago. To be so over the moon happy, naive, and excited... And have it all ripped away, along with my baby girl. I am venting because one of my best friends just had a c-section and her daughter was born. She has a son who turned 1 in August, and she got pregnant with this baby by surprise. So they're just 14 months apart. My gosh. I wanted and loved Ava before she was even conceived and she's gone. And my friend wasn't even planning for this baby and ta da, she's here. Who decides fairness in life? Certainly not a woman. I feel like a woman would have too much compassion to let such disparity exist. Don't misunderstand me, I am happy for my friend. But I want to be happy for her and me BOTH. I don't want to be happy for her and grieve over Ava's death at the same time. I don't think my brain can process both emotions at once.
Thanks for letting me vent! I hope time has helped you heal. I have found the passage of time to be the only true way to find peace.