Logically, I fully comprehend that gaining weight around my full middle, and not just my front is the way my body handles pregnancy. Logically. Emotionally and psychologically are totally different stories. Am I alone in this? I feel terribly not being happy about how well my body carries and delivers babies. My husband makes it blatantly clear that he is head over heels for me and very attracted to me as I am, now and before. Yet, after spending so much time working my tail end off at the gym and developing a love of running and exercising, it is SO hard to see what looks like love handles come back, to not be able to exercise.. to run out of breath walking up stairs ><
Again, I fully logically comprehend that I was in bed almost constantly with morning sickness for five weeks and then ended up on bed rest for two weeks so I am going to have trouble.
Guess I'm just hoping I'm not alone in struggling with self image and the fear of not this being really hard to drop back off after the twins arrive.
~pathetic look~
Re: Feeling fat..
2nd FET 6/14/2013 - BPF!!! -
1st Beta: 1046!!!!! - 2nd Beta: 2754!!!!!
First u/s 7/11/2013 - TWINS!!! 120 and 124 heartbeats
Second u/s 7/29/2013 - wiggley babies! 178 and 184 heartbeats!
Third u/s 9/9/2013 - 157 and 161 heartbeats ... a BOY and a GIRL!!!! Cervix on the "shorter side" (3-3.3) - going to check again in 2 weeks.
Fourth u/s 9/23/2013 - Baby A = 157 Baby B = 150 heartbeat. Cervix now 2.3-2.6 ... being referred to a MFM
MFM Appointment 9/26/2013 = Both babies healthy, cervix now measuring at 4 - Playing tricks on me ... will follow up in 2 weeks.
Cervical check 10/7 with regular OB - 2.1cm --- going BACK to the MFM armed with ultrasound pictures from my OB of my cervix. *sigh*
MFM Appointment 10/8 - confirmed my cervix at 2.1cm - putting me on Progesterone for a week.
MFM Appointment 10/17 - Cervix unchanged! Keeping me on Progesterone - followup 10/29
Everett Alan James (3lbs8oz) and Eliana Lee (3lbs7oz) born 12/28/13 at 30w6d!
You are growing TWO babies, you have to do what's best for them. I keep telling myself it took 36 weeks to gain, I need to give myself time to lose. It is not forever and it is so incredibly worth it!!