It's been a long time since I"ve posted here.

Eastie156

I'm betting none of you remember me. I picked tonight to come back to the board that I haven't posted on in over a year and half. As November approaches, I find myself thinking about my loss, which happened on Nov 22, 2011 when I was just over 8 weeks pregnant. It was one of the saddest days of my life. A year ago, I had a new baby to keep me busy and while he still is keeping me busy, I've settled into a routine and it's giving me more thinking time. I wonder what if  and then feel guilty because i have a beautiful baby. I shouldn't feel this way. But I do. I even think to myself, "you should be over it". But I'm not. Just venting, thanks for letting me.

Hugs to all you going through loss. It's unfair and I wish it was avoidable.

Noethola

You cannot be over the loss of a child. Everyone grieves at their own pace. I am so sorry next month is a hard one for you. 

Dont feel guilty for your feelings. It is a hard journey to navigate.

jbranden12

I am sorry for your loss, and your rainbow is beautiful!  I think when you last posted, the boards were organized a little differently. This board is geared towards late pregnancy loss, stillbirth, and infant or child loss. There is a separate board for women who have experienced Miscarriage/Pregnancy Loss. In the end, the loss of a child is heartbreaking regardless of timing. However, I would suggest you add a warning to the title of your post like *rainbow mentioned* as seeing your precious boy may be very difficult for some women. 

Eastie156

PP, you are absolutely right, I'd forgotten the boards were reorganized. I had no idea the loss board had changed. Major slip on my part. Had I known, I would've posted to that board. Thanks for the heads up. Certainly I didn't intend to offend. I've been around the boards long enough to know better.