Don't know what to do

ashbeut37

I have two children my first son will be 2 in November and my second son is going to be six months in a few days. We moved to this town when I was eight months pregnant. I don't know anyone here. I work full time. I am so tired all the time that I can't even function. I come home from work and I clean the house and I do laundry. I have not worn my hair down in over six months. I have not been anywhere without my kids since before my second was born except work. I feel terrible every day. No matter how much I do the house is still a mess and their are still clothes to wash. I feel like a horrible mom because when I get home and finish cleaning I am excited for bedtime so I can do my homework and maybe get some sleep. I can barely keep my eyes open during the day but at bedtime I toss and turn. My closest baby sitter is three hours away. The only symptom I wish I had I don't. I eat constantly and look so gross. I love my kids but they deserve a better mom. I have not made it though a day without crying in weeks. I don't know what to do. 

amberdanielle68845

Talk to your dr.  PPD is a hole that just keeps sinking.  It helped me to realize my house didn't have to be spotless and there would always be laundry to do or a dish to wash but my child deserved my time as well.  If not keeping your home as perfect as you once thought it had to be is an option then that may help as well. As your SO for a little hlep and decide what has to be done and what can wait.  A counselor, therapist or your dr would be a great source of help.  Within the 1st 2 days of being on PPD/PPA meds I fealt so much better. Chin up and don't be afraid to seek out help if needed :-)

EVA116

I try to pick one chore a day to get done...like kids laundry and then the next day my laundry. Then maybe, clean the bathrooms the next day. It makes it less overwhelming. You have two small children and it sucks some days. This is just a brief period...that is what I tell myself. I sit and wish my son would be older...I hate the baby stage....I am always tired.

Agree with PP and you should talk to your doc. Medicine can help. Some days my PPD flares up more then others.

T+Schultz4

First off having two under two is HARD and you work, great job mama! Talk to a doctor. It will help so much. You need to take care of yourself before you can take care of your babies. You are taking on too much to do this without talking to a doctor or meds.