laparoscopy and frightened

breeanne1974

I have had 5 rounds of clomid and shots on last round with a failed IUI. During my last round we discovered through a very painful HSG that I have a blocked tube. I know I'm not unique in this phase of secondary IF and I know many of you have had laparoscopy done and everything turned out positive.

But I'm truly frightened and worried about how this might go. I'm considerably overweight (and I know that has contributed to me getting pregnant this time. I'm 20 pounds heavier than when I first got pregnant). I haven't been put under general anesthesia in over 25 years and I wasn't even close to being this heavy. I'm 39 and my little precious girl will be 3 on the 27th. My surgery is scheduled for the 11th and will be performed by my RE.

Is there anyone who has had a lap who was scared to go through with it? Not because it might fail but because something might go wrong. I feel like because I'm so desperate to give my daughter a sibling I'm putting myself in a precarious situation for selfish reasons. Maybe my high anxiety is God's way of telling me not to do this. But I can't tell if it's hormones or not.

I just need a little support. I have my pre-op on Wednesday.

+SouthernMomma+

I have no experience here, but wanted to extend HUGS out to you... I'll be praying for you to have peace during this procedure! Good Luck...

freakyfast

You are not alone in this for sure.  And I will be honest here.... Anytime you are put under there are risks, however, they are so small.  That is why they do this so often.  It is a scary feeling, and waking up is scary... But you CAN and WILL do this and get through it. 

When I had my ectopic, no one in my family knew that I was pregnant, and we didn't tell them, because we were waiting to make sure everything was ok.  On my way to the hospital for the surgery to have the pregnancy removed I called them to tell them... mostly in case something went wrong.  I totally understand your fears and I have to have surgery again in about a month, and I am terrified.  But you will be ok.  You CAN do this.

AlmostWright

I had a blocked tube removed earlier this year and had very similar thoughts. The surgery and recovery were not too bad. I was more worried about not waking up than the actual surgery. I do have high anxiety over all medical things, and a lot of it does come back to wanting to be around for my son (he was just 3 at the time of the surgery). I wish I had better advice, but you are not alone in your feelings. Just remember that your doctors do this all the time and will do everything they can to keep you safe. Good luck!

kndeckar

I have no experience with this but wanted to wish you good luck and peace in your decision making. This is the therapist in me coming out, but our anxiety can play crazy tricks on our mind. Don't let the anxiety decide your course of action.

breeanne1974

Thank you all for your kind words. I spoke with my health carrier nurse (she was an RE nurse for 15 years) and she gave me a little more insight to the procedure and what happens.

My anxiety is still quite high but I have more answers to my questions and when I visit tomorrow with the Dr I can hopefully get even more clarification and comfort.

Again thank you and baby dust to all!

breeanne1974

My surgery was cancelled because my RE found another RE who will accommodate IVF at my weight. We never even thought this was an option for us and therefore, I've never done any research on this topic.

We had an appointment with him today and go back to see him Monday for the sono/hyst(?). Where they put saline in your uterus. I hope and pray it's not as bad as my HSG.