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dreamingofdimples
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Hello. Newbie message boarder here.
dreamingofdimples
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in Infertility
Hi there. I'm not yet sure how to use these boards yet. They are pretty confusing to me. I'm new here. But not new TTC.
We've been trying for 5 years.
I'm 36. He's 37.
3 failed IUIs
Stage 3/4 endometriosis
Diminished Ovarian Reserve (DOR) and a poor responder to stim meds
On our 3rd IVF attempt at CCRM. We have (4) 1 cell embryos on ice - banking them for PGS on our next (last) cycle.
I've hit a new low for loneliness and frustration at infertility. Thought I'd seek the solace of message boards as opposed to throwing my computer at a wall after seeing more pregnancy announcements on Facebook.
I also blog at dreamingofdimples.com.
Me: 36 - stage 2/3 endometriosis, diminished ovarian reserve (DOR), poor responder
Hubs: 37 - low morphology
TTC since 2008
Referred to local RE: 6/22/2010
HSG + Saline sonogram: 8/13/2010
IUI #1: BFN 09/2010
IUI #2: BFN 10/2010
IUI #3: + acupuncture: BFN 12/26/2010
Laparoscopy: Diagnosed and cleaned out endometriosis 1/9/2012
IVF#1 (ICSI): Long Lupron + acupuncture = Cancelled 1/11/2013
Second opinion phone consult with CCRM: 5/13/2013
ODWU at CCRM: 6/10/13
IVF #2 (ICSI): Estrogen Priming Protocol - ER 9/28/2013 = 7 eggs retrieved, 4 fertilized (banked and frozen at one cell stage for PGD testing with embies next retrieval)
IVF #3 (ICSI): Estrogen Priming Protocol - ER 1/10/14 = 8 eggs retrieved, 3 fertilized. My 4 from previous cycle were thawed at Day 1 to grow to Day 5 blastocyst phase with my 3 fresh embryos. Only 2 embryos made blastocyst and were biopsied for CCS testing. Both were abnormal. Nothing to transfer from either cycle. Told that I should move onto other options.Grieving loss of any biological children with my genes.
My blog: Dreaming of Dimples
Hubs: 37 - low morphology
TTC since 2008
Referred to local RE: 6/22/2010
HSG + Saline sonogram: 8/13/2010
IUI #1: BFN 09/2010
IUI #2: BFN 10/2010
IUI #3: + acupuncture: BFN 12/26/2010
Laparoscopy: Diagnosed and cleaned out endometriosis 1/9/2012
IVF#1 (ICSI): Long Lupron + acupuncture = Cancelled 1/11/2013
Second opinion phone consult with CCRM: 5/13/2013
ODWU at CCRM: 6/10/13
IVF #2 (ICSI): Estrogen Priming Protocol - ER 9/28/2013 = 7 eggs retrieved, 4 fertilized (banked and frozen at one cell stage for PGD testing with embies next retrieval)
IVF #3 (ICSI): Estrogen Priming Protocol - ER 1/10/14 = 8 eggs retrieved, 3 fertilized. My 4 from previous cycle were thawed at Day 1 to grow to Day 5 blastocyst phase with my 3 fresh embryos. Only 2 embryos made blastocyst and were biopsied for CCS testing. Both were abnormal. Nothing to transfer from either cycle. Told that I should move onto other options.Grieving loss of any biological children with my genes.
My blog: Dreaming of Dimples
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Re: Hello. Newbie message boarder here.
IUI#4 1/23/13 on 75iu x9 Follistim = BFP then chem preg m/c (Feb 2013)
IUI#5 BFN (April 2013)
S/PAIFW , S/PALW
My Blog
*hug*
I just read your most recent blog post and it's eerily similar to the one I posted this morning. Between the reality of drained savings, overwhelming depression, loneliness, and lack of hope, I am right there with you on this depressing and craptastic "journey" (more like hell-hole) called infertility. This whole process sucks donkey parts especially when you see it come so easily and free for others, pregnancy announcements and ultrasounds splattered all over facebook, or when you are forced to be around someone who complains about their pregnancy - something you'd give your right arm to experience yourself. It's so freakin' unfair.
You came to the right place. Vent, cry, yell, punch something - anything...we all get it here! I am so sorry any of us have to deal with this, but I am praying with all my might that this cycle brings you your take-home baby. I am rooting for you and we are here for you anytime you need us!
************ Signature/Ticker Warning ************
Me (32) DH (36) - Finding our way to baby #1
Me: POF/DOR - AMH <0.16, heterozygous c677t MTHFR, insulin resistant and gluten intolerant
DH: Severe MFI
12/2/11 - IUI #1- BFN
8/1/12 - IVF #1 - Zero response from max stims (600iu intramuscularly)
My ovaries are just for decoration
12/6/12 - Adopted five embryos that had been frozen for over ten years!
2/11/13 - DEmbryo FET #1 Thawed four, sadly two didn't survive. Transferred two beautiful blasts.
2/16/13 - First BFP of my life @ 6dp5dt! EDD 10/30/13
3/27/13 - After beta and u/s hell, no heartbeat ever detected. D&C at 9w1d.
6/5/13 - Adopted four new embryos that had been frozen for seven years!
9/12/13 - DEmbryo FET #2. Thawed and transferred two beautiful blasts
9/17/13 - BFP @ 5dp6dt! EDD 05/31/14
9/29/13 - m/c @ 5w1d.
11/19/13 - DEmbryo FET #3. Thawed and transferred one blast from each batch. Wow!
11/23/13 - BFP @ 4dp6dt! EDD 8/7/13
Beta #1 @ 13dp6dt - 522 Beta #2 @ 16dp6dt - 1373
6w5d ultrasound showed one perfect baby with a beautiful heartbeat of 134bpm!
Snowflake baby is a girl!
Our beautiful Snowflake girl arrived on July 22, 2014!
My embryo adoption blog: Wishing on a Snowflake
Countless BFN(s)
Moving to IVF
IVF1 (ICSI): Long Lupron
6R. 3F. 3DT. 8Cell 1Grade 2Embies. 1Frostie.
Beta 1/22: 14 Beta 1/24: 24 Beta 1/26: 28
Round One Result: Chemical Pregnancy
Pressing Forward
IVF2 (ICSI/AH/ACU): Microdose Lupron Flare
13R. 11F. 5DT. 2TFR'ed. 1Frostie.
Round Two Result 4/30: Harsh BFN
FET. 2TFR'ed.
Round Three Result 6/25: BFN
Where do we go from here?
Moving forward with CCRM in 2013
ODWU revealed blocked tube(s). Lap 2/15.
Bilateral Tubal Ligation. Stage IV Endo.
Finally some (tough) answers.
IVF3 (ICSI/CCS): Antagonist with EPP
13R. We have 3 CCS Normal Embryos!
Lupron Depot: May 2013 to August 2013
Long awaited FET on 9/3. 2TFR'ed.
BFP on FRER 5dp5dt: IN SHOCK!
Beta1 9/10: 152.7! Beta2 9/12: 378! Beta3 9/14: 1224!
1st ultrasound 10/1: TWO beautiful heartbeats! Overjoyed!
DX: Adenomyosis, Compounded MTHFR, PAI-1 4G variant
DH: 34
MFI due to Testicular Cancer
Married March 2012
IVF w/ICSI #1
10 little polar bears
FET #1 with 2 polar bears ~Nov 6, 2013 BFN
FET # 2 with 2 more polar bears ~March 19, 2014 BFP!!!
Beta 1= 276
Beta 2= 662
4/19/14 ~ baby A became an angel
5/02/14 ~ baby B became an angel
5/3/14 ~ D&C
FET #3 with 1 male polar bear ~October 3, 2014
October 13, 2014 ~ BFN
Fur Children: Memphis 3y, Dutch 3y, Marcel 2y, Meadow 1y
January 2015 Siggy Challenge TTCAL
Animals Interacting with Snow
Me: 32 H: 31
IVF #1 October 2013 Antagonistic Protocol with ICSI ER 10/31/13 (18R 16M 11F- 6 blasts to freeze)
ET delayed due to OHSS
FET scheduled for July 8. Delayed due to a crazy high TSH (it had been under control for YEARS!)
FET #1 8/5/14 sET BFN
Hubs: 37 - low morphology
TTC since 2008
Referred to local RE: 6/22/2010
HSG + Saline sonogram: 8/13/2010
IUI #1: BFN 09/2010
IUI #2: BFN 10/2010
IUI #3: + acupuncture: BFN 12/26/2010
Laparoscopy: Diagnosed and cleaned out endometriosis 1/9/2012
IVF#1 (ICSI): Long Lupron + acupuncture = Cancelled 1/11/2013
Second opinion phone consult with CCRM: 5/13/2013
ODWU at CCRM: 6/10/13
IVF #2 (ICSI): Estrogen Priming Protocol - ER 9/28/2013 = 7 eggs retrieved, 4 fertilized (banked and frozen at one cell stage for PGD testing with embies next retrieval)
IVF #3 (ICSI): Estrogen Priming Protocol - ER 1/10/14 = 8 eggs retrieved, 3 fertilized. My 4 from previous cycle were thawed at Day 1 to grow to Day 5 blastocyst phase with my 3 fresh embryos. Only 2 embryos made blastocyst and were biopsied for CCS testing. Both were abnormal. Nothing to transfer from either cycle. Told that I should move onto other options.Grieving loss of any biological children with my genes.
My blog: Dreaming of Dimples
Hubs: 37 - low morphology
TTC since 2008
Referred to local RE: 6/22/2010
HSG + Saline sonogram: 8/13/2010
IUI #1: BFN 09/2010
IUI #2: BFN 10/2010
IUI #3: + acupuncture: BFN 12/26/2010
Laparoscopy: Diagnosed and cleaned out endometriosis 1/9/2012
IVF#1 (ICSI): Long Lupron + acupuncture = Cancelled 1/11/2013
Second opinion phone consult with CCRM: 5/13/2013
ODWU at CCRM: 6/10/13
IVF #2 (ICSI): Estrogen Priming Protocol - ER 9/28/2013 = 7 eggs retrieved, 4 fertilized (banked and frozen at one cell stage for PGD testing with embies next retrieval)
IVF #3 (ICSI): Estrogen Priming Protocol - ER 1/10/14 = 8 eggs retrieved, 3 fertilized. My 4 from previous cycle were thawed at Day 1 to grow to Day 5 blastocyst phase with my 3 fresh embryos. Only 2 embryos made blastocyst and were biopsied for CCS testing. Both were abnormal. Nothing to transfer from either cycle. Told that I should move onto other options.Grieving loss of any biological children with my genes.
My blog: Dreaming of Dimples
Me-39, HSG 2/13- clear. DS-IUI #1-3/13,300iu Menopur 12 days,3 days Cetrotide, Ovidrel Trigger-BFN. IUI #2 06/13, BFP EDD: 02/22/14 m/c (cp), IUI #3- BFP EDD: 5/17/14 m/c 09/13. Blood work/RPL panel- nk cell/MTHFR mutation- negative. Blood work all good. Unexplained reason for m/c. IUI #4 BFP m/c (cp) 10/13. IUI #5- 12/13 Cancelled. No response. (1)follicle. IUI #5.1- 2/14. IVF Bound
********************SAIF/ PAIF/ ALL ARE WELCOME***********************
Hubs: 37 - low morphology
TTC since 2008
Referred to local RE: 6/22/2010
HSG + Saline sonogram: 8/13/2010
IUI #1: BFN 09/2010
IUI #2: BFN 10/2010
IUI #3: + acupuncture: BFN 12/26/2010
Laparoscopy: Diagnosed and cleaned out endometriosis 1/9/2012
IVF#1 (ICSI): Long Lupron + acupuncture = Cancelled 1/11/2013
Second opinion phone consult with CCRM: 5/13/2013
ODWU at CCRM: 6/10/13
IVF #2 (ICSI): Estrogen Priming Protocol - ER 9/28/2013 = 7 eggs retrieved, 4 fertilized (banked and frozen at one cell stage for PGD testing with embies next retrieval)
IVF #3 (ICSI): Estrogen Priming Protocol - ER 1/10/14 = 8 eggs retrieved, 3 fertilized. My 4 from previous cycle were thawed at Day 1 to grow to Day 5 blastocyst phase with my 3 fresh embryos. Only 2 embryos made blastocyst and were biopsied for CCS testing. Both were abnormal. Nothing to transfer from either cycle. Told that I should move onto other options.Grieving loss of any biological children with my genes.
My blog: Dreaming of Dimples
IVF/FET #1 - BFP!!
DX - PCOS 2004
FET #2 - scheduled for 11/24/15
Hubs: 37 - low morphology
TTC since 2008
Referred to local RE: 6/22/2010
HSG + Saline sonogram: 8/13/2010
IUI #1: BFN 09/2010
IUI #2: BFN 10/2010
IUI #3: + acupuncture: BFN 12/26/2010
Laparoscopy: Diagnosed and cleaned out endometriosis 1/9/2012
IVF#1 (ICSI): Long Lupron + acupuncture = Cancelled 1/11/2013
Second opinion phone consult with CCRM: 5/13/2013
ODWU at CCRM: 6/10/13
IVF #2 (ICSI): Estrogen Priming Protocol - ER 9/28/2013 = 7 eggs retrieved, 4 fertilized (banked and frozen at one cell stage for PGD testing with embies next retrieval)
IVF #3 (ICSI): Estrogen Priming Protocol - ER 1/10/14 = 8 eggs retrieved, 3 fertilized. My 4 from previous cycle were thawed at Day 1 to grow to Day 5 blastocyst phase with my 3 fresh embryos. Only 2 embryos made blastocyst and were biopsied for CCS testing. Both were abnormal. Nothing to transfer from either cycle. Told that I should move onto other options.Grieving loss of any biological children with my genes.
My blog: Dreaming of Dimples
DH: 31 Fair DNA fragmentation test
TTC: since March 2012
09-21-13 start IVF #1
10-04-13 ER 6 eggs, 6 mature, all 6 fertilized. 3 frozen
10-08-13 fresh transfer canceled due to high progesterone
waiting for FET
10-18 started BCP
10-29 baseline appt scheduled
11-20 scheduled date of FET #1
12-2 BFN
3-1-14 moving on to the next step. Switched RE. going to plan 3 IUI cycles while saving for IVF#2
April 2014- IUI#1 BFN
May 2014- IUI#2 BFN
June 2014 IUI#3 BFN
Taking a break for a while, focusing on our wedding.
Sept 24th missed period! Surprise natural BFP
10-15-14 first ultrasound
06-05-15 EDD
Hubs: 37 - low morphology
TTC since 2008
Referred to local RE: 6/22/2010
HSG + Saline sonogram: 8/13/2010
IUI #1: BFN 09/2010
IUI #2: BFN 10/2010
IUI #3: + acupuncture: BFN 12/26/2010
Laparoscopy: Diagnosed and cleaned out endometriosis 1/9/2012
IVF#1 (ICSI): Long Lupron + acupuncture = Cancelled 1/11/2013
Second opinion phone consult with CCRM: 5/13/2013
ODWU at CCRM: 6/10/13
IVF #2 (ICSI): Estrogen Priming Protocol - ER 9/28/2013 = 7 eggs retrieved, 4 fertilized (banked and frozen at one cell stage for PGD testing with embies next retrieval)
IVF #3 (ICSI): Estrogen Priming Protocol - ER 1/10/14 = 8 eggs retrieved, 3 fertilized. My 4 from previous cycle were thawed at Day 1 to grow to Day 5 blastocyst phase with my 3 fresh embryos. Only 2 embryos made blastocyst and were biopsied for CCS testing. Both were abnormal. Nothing to transfer from either cycle. Told that I should move onto other options.Grieving loss of any biological children with my genes.
My blog: Dreaming of Dimples
DH: 31 Fair DNA fragmentation test
TTC: since March 2012
09-21-13 start IVF #1
10-04-13 ER 6 eggs, 6 mature, all 6 fertilized. 3 frozen
10-08-13 fresh transfer canceled due to high progesterone
waiting for FET
10-18 started BCP
10-29 baseline appt scheduled
11-20 scheduled date of FET #1
12-2 BFN
3-1-14 moving on to the next step. Switched RE. going to plan 3 IUI cycles while saving for IVF#2
April 2014- IUI#1 BFN
May 2014- IUI#2 BFN
June 2014 IUI#3 BFN
Taking a break for a while, focusing on our wedding.
Sept 24th missed period! Surprise natural BFP
10-15-14 first ultrasound
06-05-15 EDD