3 weeks pp

Mrschadwick72

I really don't know what to do or where to begin. I don't know if I still am experiencing baby blues, or if it's turning into PPD. I feel lost and trapped especially with having a newborn strapped to me 24/7 with no one else able to soothe her. I love her so much but I get so angry when she cries and won't stop. Maybe that's just normal? All I want to do is make her happy but I also need a break sometimes too. I can barely even get a shower in without her wanting me again. I don't have any desire to leave my house and I ignore pretty much everyone's phone calls because I don't want people to come over either. I cry when my DH has to leave to work because I feel I'm going to do this whole mother thing wrong while he's at work. I'm tired if crying. I'm tired of being upset. I want to enjoy my baby while she's still little, I know it won't last long. I want to be normal again. I know I should talk to my doctor but I'm scared too. I don't want to have to take medicine. I want to be the one who makes myself happy. I don't think counseling is an option either because I don't like talking. I' can barely talk to my DH about something that's bothering me. Sorry this is so long! I just need to get it all off my chest.

rdbabygrl

I had PPD with my first for almost 9 months. Without opening up to my therapist and knowing I could get through it all, even with the help of some meds, I wouldn't have made it. I really feel you need to be open with your doctor, they are an unbiased third party who will treat you differently than friends and family. They truly are there to help YOU get through this all. Don't count things out before you give them a valiant effort.

Ardmhs83

You described the "beginning" for me perfectly.  :-(  I had lots of these same exact feelings!  I didn't get help and things only got worse, way worse!  I eventually broke down and got help at 7 months PP with meds and therapy.  Thank God I did!  Saved my life!  Wish I would have gone sooner, things wouldn't have gotten as far out of control.  I urge you to speak up whether you want to or not.  Please don't be fearful of meds and therapy.  They can make you a better mother.  You will feel a lot better!!  Things rarely get better on their own, honestly.

Keep your head up and speak up.

Take care!

Mrschadwick72

Thank you ladies! I really appreciate your input. Ill mention something to my ob at our next doctors appointment.