Late Term and Child Loss

Six months **ticker warning**

Today marks since months since our angel was born sleeping.  I can't believe it's been that long already.  I went to her grave the other day for the first time in about a month.  Somedays I can go, talk to her for a few, clean up her grave and I'm ok.  It's been quite a while since I got emotional there, not really since the first month or two after we lost her.  But as soon as I got there the other day I could tell it was going to be an emotional visit.  We have a teddy bear at her grave, and it had rained a few days ago so the bear was filthy and soaking wet, and I just lost it.

I know the bear is going to get dirty, but it's just so unfair.  Our children's stuffed animals shouldn't be outside in the rain and mud, they should be clean and dry and in their crib with them.  I stayed for a while and cried a lot, and then I went to run errands.  But as soon as I got home I could feel it building again, and burst into tears telling MH about her teddy bear.  I'm just so sad and angry for all of us.  It's so not fair.

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  • I just passed my 6 month mark as well. That was really hard, harder than I anticipated. I thought about putting stuffed animals at her grave as well..but thought about them getting yucky. I was actually wondering about the wax dipped teddy bears and maybe getting one of them?

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  • I am so sorry. Milestones are so very hard to pass. We just keep getting reminded about what we have lost. Big ((hugs)) to you today.
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    Milestones are so hard...and it makes you realize just how much time has passed, even if it seems like no time has passed at all. Thinking of you today. *hugs*

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  • (((hugs)))  The 3 month mark was really hard for me.  My therapist suggested that their is significance with that because it is a significant marker in child development.  I am anticipating the same trouble with 6, 9 and 12 months for that reason.  I haven't brought anything to Izzie's grave because I am afraid to see what happens to it.  I couldn't agree more that this all unfair.  More (((hugs)))
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  • I reached 5 months last week (ironically the day of my first therapy session) and I can't believe it's been thy long. 6 months will feel significant to me, I'm sure. My life is different in every conceivable way than I thought it would be. Every day I feel the emptiness and loneliness knowing Ava and I will never cuddle again on this Earth. Hugs to you, hun, and all of you today.

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    ((Hugs)) This Friday is the 6th month mark for me. I can't believe is has been that long. I wonder where the time has gone.
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