Today marks since months since our angel was born sleeping. I can't believe it's been that long already. I went to her grave the other day for the first time in about a month. Somedays I can go, talk to her for a few, clean up her grave and I'm ok. It's been quite a while since I got emotional there, not really since the first month or two after we lost her. But as soon as I got there the other day I could tell it was going to be an emotional visit. We have a teddy bear at her grave, and it had rained a few days ago so the bear was filthy and soaking wet, and I just lost it.
I know the bear is going to get dirty, but it's just so unfair. Our children's stuffed animals shouldn't be outside in the rain and mud, they should be clean and dry and in their crib with them. I stayed for a while and cried a lot, and then I went to run errands. But as soon as I got home I could feel it building again, and burst into tears telling MH about her teddy bear. I'm just so sad and angry for all of us. It's so not fair.
My Pregnancy/Parenting BLOG TTC since 5/2011, BFP #1 12/3/11, M/C 12/7/11 @ 4wks 2d. Began seeing RE Sep 2012. October 2012 Metformin 1500 mg= ovulation on CD34 BFP#2 11/14/12 9DPO, EDD 7/26/13, DX Gestational Diabetes @14 wks, our angel born sleeping 3/24/13 @ 22wks 2d. BFP #3 7/4/13 8DPO EDD 3/22/14, DX Gestational Diabetes @14 wks. started insulin @16 wks. Our rainbow, born 3/19/14 @ 39wks 6d., we're so in love!