Good/Bad days

shandorfml2

Isn't it crazy how you can have good, almost "normal" days and then you think.."is this real? Is my baby really gone?" I just can't believe it sometimes. It sucks. sucks. sucks. I want her. I guess I'm still in shock that this happened, and this is my life.

neptunebljc

I totally agree with you. I thought I was doing well, but then I feel like I've got  a black cloud following me and no matter how hard I try to feel happy about something else, it just doesn't seem to help.

OSUWifey09

***SIGGY/pregnancy mentioned***


I still have those moments. Today is the due date for one of my friends; tomorrow is Devon's EDD. When I found out today was her actual due date [I thought it was last week], it hit me so hard that I had to walk away and not have an anxiety attack. Those things still affect me, even a year later. It's so hard to be a loss mom.

OSUWifey09

Sending so many hugs to you ladies. It just blows to be in this position.

Noethola

It is so hard to think that this is truly our reality. There are days that are so ridiculously hard and all I want is for my daughter to be here growing and being healthy.

shandorfml2

Thanks for the support ladies. Life can be so hard

TwinkleTor

I had a rough day too... Had my postpartum appointment and I just felt like all the nurses and doctors were whispering about me... Got to be very aggravating! Hope you have a better day tomorrow! ((Hugs))

princezjk

(((Hugs))) ladies, this journey of grief is so unpredictable.  There are many aspects I hate, but the unpredictability makes it so hard to manage the grief.  I can relate to feeling like I am doing well and then *BAM* I am knocked for a loop.  Hoping for better days for all of us!  

angelsnight

Ticker warning

 

Hugs, I get this too.  There are days when I am almost feeling too good, and I feel like there is something wrong with me.  But then there are days where the pain feels just as intense and unbellievable as the day it happened.

Dixon813

Yeah...My day at work will be just fine, then I'll be driving home and think those exact thoughts.  I've cried more times on my drive home than not....

Hugs!

shandorfml2

Same here @Dixon813. My drive home tends to quiet my mind enough to have grief creep in.

TwinkleTor

Dixon813 said:

Yeah...My day at work will be just fine, then I'll be driving home and think those exact thoughts.  I've cried more times on my drive home than not....

Hugs!

My drive home always reminds me of Domenik... That's when he was most active. I would sing and talk to him, now my rides are so quiet. I try playing my iPod, but there are so many songs that remind me of him and our favorite time together.

schulme2

I hear ya. Some days are ok and then when I realize things have been ok and she hasn't been in the front of my mind then I feel guilty... Like I'm not giving her the attention she deserves. Then it becomes a worse day. :-(

Jkerr924

It's been 4 weeks tomorrow for me. Some days I feel like man, it's got to be almost time to try again right?? Then other day's I feel like my world is crumbing around me. I feel like people forget after a certain amount of time has gone by or that I shouldn't be feeling a certain way because it's been a month. Comparing our grieving with the weird weather is spot on. I feel like now I see more pregnant women, people are announcing their pregnancies, and baby commercials are on every commercial break!!!