GD confessions and guilt

BeachBucket

It has been almost 7 weeks since my GD diagnosis. Since that time I have been a good little diabetic. I have been diet controlled and have had no real issues with the diet. It sucks, but I do it.

For the last week now my fasting numbers have been very low (60s before they were in the 70s) and I've been able to eat a LOT more carbs than before at nearly every meal. At my 36w appt I had gained weight for the first time in nearly 6weeks (total so far is 19lbs, was considered "low normal" weight before pregnancy) . It's great that my numbers are getting better, but I almost wish they weren't. Because then I wouldn't feel as if I have some wiggle room. I obviously can not handle the inch my placenta has given me....I want the full mile.

This evening DH works late, my feet are swollen from being on them all day, and I am tired. So what did I do? I went to Wendy's. I went to Wendy's and I had a frosty, a 4 piece, and a cheeseburger. Now as I wait for my alarm to sound on my phone I feel like the worst mom ever. I didn't even look up the carb value on any of those items. I just pulled the trigger blindly and didn't care.

Please tell me I am not the first to do this. Or that I am not the worst for doing it. I'm just not myself emotionally lately and this just made me feel like a POS mom.

memali26

You are not the first, you won't be the last, and one meal will not hurt your baby. I promise, it will be okay and you are not a horrible mom. Don't beat yourself up over one completely understandable cheat.

ATXMamaDoll

I agree. One meal splurge, at this point, is not going to hurt your LO. It is okay to stray a little. You clearly know how to take care of yourself and your baby. Enjoy it since you don't often do it!
>:D<

jegoehle

I agree too. It's consistently not following the rules that leads to trouble, it's ok!

Kateers

It's okay to have the occasional cheat meal! They want to see a pattern of good numbers,one or two high ones won't effect the baby.

BeachBucket

Thank you ladies. The end is near. I just find myself so emotional lately that it almost makes me irrational.

Tomorrow will be better!

agentkitten75

Being that your numbers are generally good, I think a cheat here and there is ok. I've been controlling my numbers except for fasting. I just started glyuburide and it's not working yet. Hopefully it will soon, that being said, I will allow myself a cheat here and there, but i also feel,guilty. I hate that, I hate that eating great and then eating one thing you actually enjoy makes you feel,like you committed a crime. GD sucks!!

BeachBucket

agentkitten75 said:

Being that your numbers are generally good, I think a cheat here and there is ok. I've been controlling my numbers except for fasting. I just started glyuburide and it's not working yet. Hopefully it will soon, that being said, I will allow myself a cheat here and there, but i also feel,guilty. I hate that, I hate that eating great and then eating one thing you actually enjoy makes you feel,like you committed a crime. GD sucks!!

It does! It truly does feel like a crime. I know there are so many other pregnancy complications I could have and that I am so blessed to have a healthy baby. But man! it can be rough at times.

lmcgt

A cheat once in a while is the only way to keep your sanity I think!! I fully intend to use my neice's second birthday this weekend as a perfect excuse to have a small tiny piece of cake!!! My first sweet in a month since getting diagnosed! The doctor said to just put a note on my log so I think they expect it. Once in a while isn't so bad.

10-4LilBuddy

I rebel every once in a while and eat more fruit at lunch or dinner. As long as it is an exception, not a rule, my doctors are ok with it. They balance my mental needs against the physical.

Curious though - what was your glucose reading after that? I rebelled the other day and had penne with meatballs. Surprisingly, it gave me only a 110 two hour reading and I got to add a tasty new addition to my menu!

lmcgt

I haven't had the cake yet so I'll see on Sunday! I did have pizza though the other day (2 slices, 1 cheese and 1 Alfredo) with some almonds right after and my reading was like 115 after 1 hour. Breakfast is my worst time, rest of the day carbs and fruit aren't too bad. I can't seem to have any real sugar at all though so we shall see what the cake does.

BeachBucket

10-4LilBuddy said:

I rebel every once in a while and eat more fruit at lunch or dinner. As long as it is an exception, not a rule, my doctors are ok with it. They balance my mental needs against the physical.

Curious though - what was your glucose reading after that? I rebelled the other day and had penne with meatballs. Surprisingly, it gave me only a 110 two hour reading and I got to add a tasty new addition to my menu!

I was 147 at the 1 hour mark. I just wrote it down and made little note about my over indulgence.

I'd love to be calling in with 2 hour numbers. It's so odd to me how differently places treat GD.

agentkitten75

10-4LilBuddy said:

I rebel every once in a while and eat more fruit at lunch or dinner. As long as it is an exception, not a rule, my doctors are ok with it. They balance my mental needs against the physical. Curious though - what was your glucose reading after that? I rebelled the other day and had penne with meatballs. Surprisingly, it gave me only a 110 two hour reading and I got to add a tasty new addition to my menu!

Isn't it crazy that to eat more fruit is rebelling ?!?! This diet is ridiculous !! It makes you think food you thought were healthy, such as fruit is the enemy.

memali26

BeachBucket said:

I rebel every once in a while and eat more fruit at lunch or dinner. As long as it is an exception, not a rule, my doctors are ok with it. They balance my mental needs against the physical. Curious though - what was your glucose reading after that? I rebelled the other day and had penne with meatballs. Surprisingly, it gave me only a 110 two hour reading and I got to add a tasty new addition to my menu!

I was 147 at the 1 hour mark. I just wrote it down and made little note about my over indulgence. I'd love to be calling in with 2 hour numbers. It's so odd to me how differently places treat GD.

147 isn't too bad!! With my oldest, I was on insulin and very carb restricted and my 1hr numbers were still consistently in the 140's to 150's. My crappy diabetic care team wouldn't up my insulin enough to bring my blood sugar down, so I spent the last month running high almost all of the time. It was a factor in my early induction, but baby girl was totally fine, not a single blood sugar issue at birth or since. If you're getting number like that once in a blue moon that's nothing to worry about at all.