unexpected

rslhmg

So we got a bit of a shock today, I had a positive home pregnancy test. I missed my period and since I am on birth control I called my dr, apparently some antibiotics I was on interfered with my birth control. My drs office told me they could schedule me an appointment or i could take a home test. I did both since they cant get me in until oct 4th. I am totally freaking out, we were def not ttc. Dd is only 15 months old, plus dh has 2 boys from a previous relationship, between the 3 of them and our nicu experience we were done. We were even discussing one of us being fixed. The worst part is that the antibiotics were prescribed by the er after a severe gallbladder attack landed me there and i stupidly assumed that since they didnt tell me the 2 antibiotics they were giving me would interfere with birth control we were still protected. Sorry for the rant/freak out, this was a big shock, and part of me is hoping the drs appointment on the 4th will have different results. I am truly terrified we will have another preemie, and worse that my worrying about having hellp syndrome again will cause it to be true. Am I nuts?

luvboston

Your not nuts its a valid worry. Everything happens for a reason and maybe this will turn out differently and if it doesn't at least you are prepared and know what to expect.

rslhmg

Thanks ladies, its good to know I am not nuts even though I feel completely crazy. I don't think I'd feel so insane if there had been warning signs and an opportunity to take preventative measures with dd. My pregnancy with her was perfect right up until the day I was admitted to the hospital. I didn't have any pre-e indicators, my bp, urine, everything had been perfect at my regular appointment less the week before everything went to hell and I was induced. Even though they told me I will be considered high risk and monitored more closely, it really scary knowing that increased monitoring last time wouldnt have changed anything. Plus I had to have 2 leep procedures done over the past year, which shortened my cervix and without the issues from my previous pregnancy would have put me in the high risk category. I'm also worrying about any side effects being on birth control not knowing I was pg could have on this lo. Lots of worried this time around, I am just hoping and praying this one is different, maybe I can keep this one cooking past 32wks and try my best not to be a nervous wreck. I am confident in my dr, just not so much in my ability to carry to term. On the plus side, at this point in my pg with dd I was having severe morning sickness and fatigue, so far, aside from cutting out coffee, I haven't had to change up my normal routine to accommodate for either. I am kinda hoping that is an sign that this one will be different, even if that sounds crazy.

megs2011

Legit fears, definitely not crazy. We want to have another but I am afraid to end up with HELLP and High BP again too. Like you, I had no issues until the day I had them (that I knew about anyways.. found out later that my back problem and intense heart burn was my liver). FX for a full term baby. I've been reading the TTC/PG after a preemie and there are a lot of next pregnancies that go term with no issues when their previous one had hellp.