I think I'm losing it and they aren't even born yet....

Ledo

I'm sorry in advance that this is so long...

I’m starting to feel like a horrible person here.  I’m less than 10 days away from our little girls getting here and for the life of me, I can’t get excited.  I’ve been cautiously ecstatic since the beginning but ever since we set our C-section date I feel like I’m just stuck in ‘shocked’ mode.  Everyone else around me, my husband, the grandmothers, friends, everyone else, is soooooo excited and dang near giddy about the girls getting here, but I just can’t get there.  Everything is ready for them, the room, car seats, everything…I’ve had a fairly easy and blessed pregnancy all things considered, and I’ve actually enjoyed being pregnant, (okay well, until the last few weeks when I seem to have lost all ability to get comfortable or sleep more than an hour at a time) but I just can’t get excited.

I want to see them so bad but I just…I don’t know….I’m not excited like everyone else, more just shocked that it’s almost here and I’m about to have 2 little infants.  I’ve never even held a baby before and now I’m about to have 2 of them…..what crazy person thinks that is okay??? (Somewhat joking there but still)

I just don’t know what to do but I feel like a horrible person that so many people are so happy and all I can do is smile and say ‘yep, their almost here’.  I know how crazy blessed we are on so many different levels but I feel like I’m just going through the motions right now.

Is this normal or am I completely crazy? 

CNYBride05

Totally normal and if I had 2 hands free to write a more full response, I would! It's overwhelming (and wonderful). You can do it!

Ledo

Thanks guys


I tried talking to my mom about this and she completely didn't understand apparently but my thought was exactly what you said Mrs Lee...it's easy for her to be excited, she gets to play with them and then send them home!   But I AM home.

I really do appreciate the responses, I've been feeling horrible about this and poor husband just has no idea what to say...yall really have made me feel a little better though.

Score for the internet!

Lil Kate

Totally normal.... Hard to know what to expect and it is scary and overwhelming. Once they are here you will be excited but so busy you wont have time to think. Everyone still says how amazing all of this is and there are times I wish they could spend a week ( no actually a day) in my shoes. Don't feel bad you will do great!

Reilly626

Just enjoy your time now- watch movies do quiet enjoyable things. Go out with your husband for dinner. Because after they come its a whirlwind and really hard the first 4 months. You will be excited that day to see them and the love you have will just flow!

kzawisl

Totally normal. And, for what it's worth, I had like ZERO baby experience before I birthed two of my own at the same time. Talk about trial by fire, right? You will be great, trust me. There will be hard days...but those will be outweighed by twin moments that melt your heart, and singleton moms won't ever know what that's like.

TREDgirl

I feel exactly the same way. I think I've just come to realize that I'm not one of those crazy over babies type of gals. I mean I like babies sure but I'm more excited about having 'kids' not babies. I don't go crazy when I see a friend's baby, I'm not concerned about their coming home from the hospital outfit, I don't really care for baby memory books. LOL this probably makes me sound horrible. 

Plus I'm also not one to get super excited about things and outwardly show it. Both DH and are excited to start our family, went through fertility treatments to get here, but now I'm at the point of ok let's get the show going. Well not for 4 more weeks at least!