Can't get worse then this

lorist202

I lost my job last Friday due to the fact it was a temp position after returning to work from being a SAHM.  I've been to 5 interviews in a week.  To say I'm not good in interviews, is an understatement.  This is funny, because I work in HR, and my specialty is actually recruitment.  I hate being on this side, especially with the "canned" questions.  Anyway, I don't feel confident that I did well in today's interview.  To make matters worse, DS is regressing from potty training and sleeping in his big boy bed.  I started him too early, I know, but  I have no more motivation left, and he's back in diapers and sleeping in his crib.  I'm a terrible mom and I know it.  His dad is more of a hindrance then a help, but at least DS is in daycare during the day. 

Oh yea, and I just turned 38, and if we're going to have another LO, I feel anxious to do it soon.  We started trying last month, and although I'm not late yet, I may be P.  If I'm not, I don't know how long we can wait.

I won't feel better until I have a job.... and then a couple of months in, I may have to tell them I'm expecting.  I know I just have all my balls up in the air and things will get better after this hump, but right now it feels like it can't get any worse.  Thanks for letting me get it out.

shakinros

I'm sorry you feel that way.

Is your DS fed? Clothed? Sleeping with a roof over his head? Loved? Do you give him some of your attention? Take him to the doctor when he needs to go? Care about him being in a good daycare and take steps to make that happen? Then you're not a terrible mom.

lorist202

No, I suppose I'm not a terrible mom... it's just that when everything feels like it's going wrong, small things seem really big!

financialdiva

You are not a terrible mom. The fact that you are worrying about being a terrible mom tells me you are not one.

Big hugs to you! I hope it all works out for you. This too shall pass.

LoCarb

::hair pats::  don't be rough on yourself you're just having a bad day. BTDT. Take a break from the PT and try again in a couple of months. GL in your job search and practice your interview skills with someone or in the mirror. Find some 'me' time and do something fun for yourself. We all need to rejuvenate to be our best!

It can always get worse.