Infertility

confessions of the 2ww

So i was telling my DH this last night and he was dying laughing.. thought i'd share and add your own. Its like i have the classic cartoon angel on one shoulder and devil on the other. Angel is positive and thinks i will be pregnant, devil is pessimistic and thinks theres no way....These are a few of the conversations in my head.

Angel: hmmm, heartburn, i never get heartburn. Maybe that could be a sign i'm pregnant!
Devil: orrrrr maybe the chili cheese dog you just ate.

Angel: Have my nipples always been this color? they look different?
Devil: quit looking at your nippples dummy.

Angel: wow, my skin is breaking out bad, hormones? maybe its pregnancy hormones!
Devil: your skin has looked terrible since middle school. stop.

Angel: Does my stomach look a little bloated? was that an implantation cramp?
Devil: Nope, chili cheese dog AGAIN.

Angel: I think i feel nauseous, who thought i could be excited to be sick to my stomach?
Devil: Now you're working yourself up into sickness, good job.

Re: confessions of the 2ww

  • this made me crack up! I definitely remember those convos in my head and know that ill have them again lol
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  • OMG do I remember those conversations. Sadly when my last IVF was cancelled I kept thinking "If I had a transfer, I'd think this was a sign I was pregnant" - Hoping I will remember that when I start having lengthy conversations with myself during the TWW. 
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    TTC Since 12/2008;  DH: 32, Azoospermia     me: 33, DX during IVF #4: Low AMH (Normal FSH) / SER due 
    to IVF Meds (causing failure to fertilize) Recent DX: Hashimoto's, Lupus Anticoagulant, White Blood Cell Disorder 
    High ANA, ATA, & APA, PAI-1 Heterozygous= blood clotting disorder; connective tissue disorder 
    IVF w/ ICSI #1 2/2011     IVF w/ ICSI #2 5/2011    IVF w/ ICSI #3 12/2012   *New RE* IVF w/ ICSI #4  5/2013
    IVF w/ ICSI #5 8/2013 (Natural Cycle- No drugs)- One follicle->one blast. CCS normal. FET 9/10- 6BB blast. m/c @ 5w
    IUI #1 12/23- BFN  IUI #2 Cancelled (ovulated during AF)  Prep:CoQ10 (300 mg); DHEA (25 mg); Melatonin (3 mg), Folgard 2.2, Metformin 500 2x, Levothyroxine 50mcg, Aspirin 81mg w/ calcium, B12,  Vit. D 4000 & Prenate Elite Daily; Cabergoline 1/2 pill 2x week-  Cycling: Estrace Priming; Prednisone 10mg, Lovenox 40mg 2x,  Femera & Menopur   
    IUI #2.1 6/30 & 7/1. 1st Beta: 90 (7/15); 2nd Beta: 226 (7/17); 3rd Beta: 766   EDD: 3/23/2015

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  • LOL. I honestly feel bipolar in the 2ww! :)

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    Me (32) DH (36) - Finding our way to baby #1
    Me: POF/DOR - AMH <0.16, heterozygous c677t MTHFR, insulin resistant and gluten intolerant
    DH: Severe MFI

    12/2/11 - IUI #1- BFN 
    8/1/12 - IVF #1 - Zero response from max stims (600iu intramuscularly)

    My ovaries are just for decoration

    12/6/12 - Adopted five embryos that had been frozen for over ten years!
    2/11/13 - DEmbryo FET #1 Thawed four, sadly two didn't survive. Transferred two beautiful blasts. 
    2/16/13 - First BFP of my life @ 6dp5dt! EDD 10/30/13
    3/27/13 - After beta and u/s hell, no heartbeat ever detected. D&C at 9w1d.

    6/5/13 - Adopted four new embryos that had been frozen for seven years!
     
    9/12/13 - DEmbryo FET #2. Thawed and transferred two beautiful blasts
    9/17/13 - BFP @ 5dp6dt! EDD 05/31/14
    9/29/13 - m/c @ 5w1d. :(

    11/19/13 - DEmbryo FET #3. Thawed and transferred one blast from each batch. Wow!
    11/23/13 - BFP @ 4dp6dt! EDD 8/7/13
    Beta #1 @ 13dp6dt - 522  Beta #2 @ 16dp6dt - 1373 
    6w5d ultrasound showed one perfect baby with a beautiful heartbeat of 134bpm!

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  • VioletteGrayskies said: I have this all the time about food.

    "OMG, I'm craving pickles and ginger ale!"

    "No, dummy, you always like pickles and ginger ale."
    Me too!
    I LOVE ginger ale and pickles, and I totally always think,
     Whoa, maybe I am pregnant  when I get one of my pickle cravings, even though me being pregnant is right up there in the nearly statistically impossible category. 

    Me: 28, DH: 35
    DX: Severe MFI, AZFc Microdeletion
    TTC since August 2011
    IVF w/ ICSI 1: Dec. 2013 - BFN
    FET 1.2: Mar. 2014 - BFN
    FET 1.3: May 2014 - BFN
    FET 1.4: June 2014 - BFP
    Two little buns in the oven. 
    Bake until March 2015, little ones. 


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  • Last night it was OMG slight twinge/cramp/pain it must mean something. 
    Me- Ok as 1/13
    DH- Azoospermia diagnosis
    DIUI #1 7/13 BFN
    DIUI #2 8/31/13 BFN
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  • Yup... I'm only day one after transfer and its already starting thank god since its a FET I only have to wait 10 days instead if 12!!! The last couple days before beta are absolute torture!!!
    Me 34 and DH 39 married in aug. 2002
    Did 5 round of clomid 2010 =BFN
     High levels of NK CELLS DX sept.2012 DOR:# 0.02 
    IVF #1 May 2012  ER 4, EF 2, ET 2 =BFN
    MINI IVF Oct.2012  Cancelled 10-27-12
    Ivf #3 Antagonist Protocol April 2013
    Shared cycle..Donor cycled in July Got 12 eggs 9 fertilized and 8 frozen!!
    DE FET #1 Sept. 3rd 2013 FIRST BFP EVER 5dp5dt
    miscarried Sept 24th at 5 weeks 5 days
    Etopic  D&C and hysterscopy Nov 5 2013
    dx with pre genetic blood clotting dec 2013
    FET #2 Jan 31st  2014 
    Miscarried for a second time again at 5 weeks 5 days
    Currently fostering to adopt an amazing little 1 year old boy..P.J!
    FET#3  is Oct 29th 2014
    BFN on fet #3
    Last and FINAL FET coming JAN 28th 2015
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  • Ugh, I'm going through this RIGHT NOW.  I'm 13 dpiui, I've tested 3 times, all BFN.  Yet my breasts are still super sore, I have the urge to pee, my sense of smell is super-heightened (like I smelled my boss's coffee in the conference room), and I'm hungry but the thought of eating is making me queasy.  And then when I DO eat I get heartburn.  HATE!!!  Why is this happening to me?!  If I just tested positive I wouldn't think I was going batshit crazy but noooooooooooooo, negative all the way.  I wish AF would arrive just so these symptoms will go away.  I swear, I'm bringing this on myself and it's totally not cool.  I'm giving myself false hope where no hope should exist.
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