Hey ladies -
There's a baby shower coming up at work in a few
weeks and I am not sure if I want to go or not. I've traditionally had a
hard time in the past with showers (siggy for mobile - 4 losses, 4
IVFs, currently 15w4d PG with a chromosomally normal bean and
everything's looking very good) and so far I'm not "into" babies quite
yet, not into all the baby items yet (I'm still just "casually" walking
in the very middle of the Target baby aisle, occasionally touching a
blanket or bib but then running away like a goon.) I'll get or make a
gift and write a nice card and be gracious in that way, I'm just trying
to feel it out and see if I need to take an hour or so of vacation time
that day to not attend.
I'm announcing our pregnancy at work and to the world tomorrow, so I feel a bit wonky about possibly not showing up to this co-worker's shower so soon afterwards. But I don't think anyone would really notice, or care, you know?
you've had multiple trubs getting/staying PG, when did you feel
emotionally awesome enough to attend/invest in a co-worker/non-best-pal
shower? When in your PG did you start to be interested in babies?
BzeetyD = 38, Mr. BzeetyD = 44 together 12/02 married 9/08
TTC #1 since 1/10
DX: Unexplained/??? MFI issues
Our lil' lost sparks:
5w3d loss 7/30/10 - EDD March 2011
8w loss 4/15/11 - EDD November 2011
8w3d loss 8/2/12 - EDD March 2013
4w c/p loss 10/29/12 - EDD July 2013
Long story: trying on our own + testing testing testing with 6 rounds of Clomid, more testing, injectables + TI, laparoscopy - one tube blocked,
2 IUIs with Follistim...BFNs.
RPL testing all normal, Karyotyping normal
Moving on to IVF.
IVF #1 April 2012 = BFN, IVF #2 June 2012 = BFP. U/S 7/23 = saw heartbeat but measuring behind. Follow up U/S on 7/30 - no heartbeat. D&C 8/2. Trisomy 12. IVF #3 Oct 2012 = Chemical Pregnancy
Phone consult with CCRM on 12/12/12 - ODWU 1/4/13 - both tubes clear(!) - AFC 24, AMH 3.2, FSH 9.6, LH 5.4, E2 25. DH has high frag rate but improved!
IVF #4 March 2013 CCRM. EP protocol w/ Menopur, Gonal-F & Dexamethasone. ER 3/29 & IMSI, PICSI. 43R 13M 10F 6blasts bio'd. CCS testing reveals 3 normals!!!
FET 5/31/13 of 1 4AA blast - thawed and expanded. 4dp5dt BFP.
Beta 9dp5dt = 181, 11dp5dt = 427. 1st u/s showed a healthy heartbeat! EDD 2/16/14
After 4 years of hoping and heartbreak, our sweet little bean was born on 2/19/14
We are so in love with her.
"I'm not telling you it's going to be easy, I'm telling you it's going to be worth it."
Everybody is welcome!!!